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respect.

2005-10-21T03:29:00.000+08:00

WHAAADDDUPPPP!! hoho.its beeen so so long since my last entry,actually am lazy to update but theres just so much things that have been happening to me lately.not bad things,MOTHER gud things infact =)) well . . clubbing has been awesome.liquidroom is just the club whereby its a must go for me every saturday.wellwell,now that my o's are like arnd the corner.going for parties or clubs are on hiatus.i can never get bored of liquid.cuz koflow is just too gud.music is just woah knahmean?now adayz its beeen hardcore mugging.eastcoast starbucks is ze bestplace neone can mug.and haha luckily its rather near my house.right now..everyone is like mug'g mad.a's and o's are arnd the corner.geez,big shit man.ack,how i wish twas all over already and i have more time for everything.sighh . . newayz side from all this crap theres always something gud that wud happen ya?something sweet.well,heres how the story goes.it wasn't so long ago that all this magical dust just came upon me.i just feel as though am in a dream.but actually i aint.i noticed her all along since she stepped into rocky masters that faithful day.my first words in my mind was like.'wow whos that'.till she went over and spoke to a frnd i knew,eva.everytime i saw her there..i'd just be mesmerized.dnt ask me why but yeahhh.twas' only afew weeks ltr i saw her.it wasnt so frequent..so i told a friend of mine that.i've got to know her.theres just something about her that i like.each time i'd step into cine,and i see the group of indo people.i'd always wish she'd be there.i just kept hoping day by day.true enough . . it happened.this snds like its some movie scene but haha.yes it did happen.zzz,i was on the bus14 home.from the 2nd deck . . i saw her at nydc.i just keep staring but to no avail.in my mind i thought,hey thats the indo girl.i didnt know her name at that point of time.and all i refered her to is the indogirl.just as the bus was about to move off from the stoplight.a head POP'd out.. hahahaha,and it happened to be my frnd.zzz..audrey.HAHA.so yesyes ..tht made it even better.so i text'd aud and asked her if it was 'that indogirl'.indeed i was right.i was rather happy then.a lil step closer.i started speak'g to her online and respect'g ppl's privacy i just didnt wana do nething.just a simple chat.soon after,twas a party at indochine.she was there with aud.so yeahhh..of course i was happy.honestly dancing with her that night was justt awesomee.OH hahaaaaa wait.i knew her name by then.HEHE,its miming =)))))).she makes me happy .. really.the next day it was at liquidroom ..that was one helluva dance.twas non-stop and gah,just lost for words.i felt super happy..cuz i've finally met her,ming.shes just really special.dont ask why ..but yeah.shes just so so sweeeet and we just click.as time went by feelings do too.i feel that i really love her alot and she knows it.i'm just living life really happily now.settling down..ming fits the puzzle just right.right now its just all about her,i'd go through each and everyday with you.love u even when u look bad,whtever circumstances it mayb,i'd be there loving u at the end of the day ya sayang.i wouldnt get bored spending each and everyday with u.cuz we'd just have so much things to do.sweeets,do know that no matter if we have smiles nor sadness on our faces,through our darkest hours.we'd stand by each other.we go through this together..not alone.tonight as hardrock was justt awesome.. i just felt that twas the right thing to do..hope u liked it yah.and am gon see u tomorrow once more =)))) gon be sucha awesome day.newayz ms miming listiyani,palam ka .. pag-anong problema mo.dito na ako ya.kailangan ko'y ikaw..dito sa buhay ko.i loveeeee u heaps and you know it.no matter the distance.i want you to know.deep down inside of me.i truely love u deeeply my love.i wouldnt settle for neone else,cause all i ever need is you. mahal na mahal kita bebe.

with love,
matttttttttttt =))

love isnt as easy as it seems.

2005-05-25T20:06:00.000+08:00

Left all alone No one to turn to Wish you were here Holding me near But things have changed There's nothing left now But memories That stay here in my heart.

Those precious times We shared when we cared Meant so much to me Though its all in the past From the pain I learned more of life That love is alive And will be part of me All my life.

When will the pain Ever be over When will new hope Rise from within Giving me strengh To start all over And make me feel Life's worth living for.

I'd never let myself Be pulled down from this loneliness I used the strength of love To help me get through.

ang akap

2005-03-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

ang pag-ibig ko'y tanging ikaw lamangang puso kong ito ay para lang sa 'yomagpakailan ma'y hindi magbabagomagpahanggang wakas mananatili ka sa pusolaging ikaw ang nasa isip ko ang buhay ko ay para sa 'yotanging ikaw lamang ang iibiginkahit sa oras ng pagtulog koikaw pa rin ang panaginipat kahit na kailan pa ma'y ikaw pa rindi ko iisipin na mayroong hangganpagmamahalan nati'y ganyankung uulitin man ang buhay kotanging ikaw pa rinang nanaising makapilinglaging ikaw ang nasa isip koang buhay ko ay para sa 'yotanging ikaw lamang ang iibiginkahit sa oras ng pagtulog koikaw pa rin ang panaginipat kahit na kailan pa ma'y ikaw pa rinikaw ang buhay ko at pangarappag-ibig ko lahat ng sandaliaging ikaw ang nasa isip koang buhay ko ay para sa 'yotanging ikaw lamang ang iibiginkahit sa oras ng pagtulog koikaw pa rin ang panaginipat kahit na kailan pa ma'y ikaw pa rin.

mahal na mahal kita.-mwahhhhhhhh.

tainted love.

2005-03-16T05:40:00.000+08:00

silence has indeed been in my heart all this while.i sit back in bed .. thinking about the many things that have passed by me.only leaving me vague images of what i can imagine.i thought to myself,if only i could relive the past .. and make all the amends to my life to make it a better one,i will.reality is catching up really quickly.things just happen without u noticing it.been sorting out quite abit of stuff lately .. got up on my own two feet once again,to fight what i may only describe as 'battle'.it wasnt punches that makes me happy,it wasnt the things i said to people that made me happy .. NONE of all this made me happy .. but only a moment of content.content that lasted for a while,but paid a heavy price.lessons learnt .. mistakes not made once again.i'm feeling really happy at the moment yet at the same time weird.weird in the sense of hows it gona be like for the next months or even years.the mind keeps boggling all the time .. bam bam bam! it doesnt stop.maybe this dumb probation thing taught me a lesson.and that is .. a person who would accept humilation.is one whom is of a strong beliver.and that short term happiness pays for a bigger price.slowly i sort things out .. things would then fall in place.i do not believe after each fall .. there isnt any chance of getting up once again,to put on a greater fight.its always the mind that makes the decisions .. but dont u ever think what the heart feels too?it works both ways.not one.human instinct would be oh .. ok i made up my mind.but .. soon may find defaults.however,if u work both ways .. u'll find,hey .. its smooth sailing.there many people in life that changes your way of thinking in every way.one day u may think this way .. the next second,u think otherwise.yes i indeed have seen the brighter side of life and not dwell in the dark where its all the negative shit goin' on.thankfully .. friends have stood by me.lynn .. shawn .. mark,the list goes on.really .. what would i do without u guys.during this grueling six months of crap.its all about thinking and realising the better things in life then just a fist.i really dont know whats on my mind right now but .. i hope for the best.what my psychologist told me was indeed true.anger isnt something that a human can control.but with your mind to overpower it,its not impossible.i guess setbacks in my life has been a stepping stone to going higher.lessons are learnt.i see myself through each day,hoping to see that someone new.the past have gone and its over.only person i would ever love once again is lynn thats all.but still .. haaha.i mean really .. i need to share the love.my love that is.HAH.ahwell .. schools gon start like this monday.hope i dont meet weird people.and its cool that am gon take the school bus.haha,sounds dam primary school but ITS FUN!well .. i can go on typing anymore.my eyes wud just shut.newayz .. bed time.5.40am .. am OUT!

ang akap. sa tuwinang taglamig
ang haplos sa kamay sa tuwinang tag-init
ninais kong ipalunas sa iyo ang bawat
sugat sa pusong pilit lumulumbay sa
naghihingalong buhay.

de'leon spins to : frankie j ft. baby bash - obsession.

some things just aint right.

2005-03-08T05:10:00.000+08:00

Open up your box of sunshine
And smile as confetti comes raining down on you
You feel a lot like the good guy, but do you know why
Everything's so blue
Well, love is fire and the coals are barely burning
Cold fills the emptiness that fills this empty place
I taught you the walk but then you ran away from me
And that's not how it's supposed to be

I I collide, with love as an elusive state of mind
I know there's something else it's supposed to be
I, I collide with love as an elusive state of mind
Something's killing me!

Tearful confessions have watered down and broken down
The chance for unrequited love to finally reach its wall
You're waiting for the axe to fall
Can't you see it lying on the ground?

You could be the best one at cleaning up this mess
Be the best one, be the best one, be the best one

the evil lives inside of you.

2005-03-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

[child delinquency] pain .. hurt .. tears .. agony ..[the evil prevails]

well .. seriously.i dont know why its all of a sudden that this has to happen.well mayb so that i can have more time to study and all.from now .. till 6 months down the road.i'll be more of a homeboy.town to me would only be a very vague image.what i used to do late at nights would all have to be a standstill.i've got a fucking curfew now .. given by the dam councelling basterds.7pm-6am i must be at home.i cant even go out.if i do .. i must be at least with one parent.all this fucking bullshit just because of bashing up one fucking useless INDIAN moron called aravindt .bloody curse his whole family to hum ga ling ah pua cheebai.sibei dulan ah knn.sacrifice for the bloody ke ling kia.no more clubbing .. no more supper .. no more latenights out in town with my friends.all .. gone to waste.till then .. all i do is just dream about all this and wait for the day it ends.supposedly it ends on 3rd sept.and my b'dae is on the 8th.i better be fucking allowed to club that day man.i'm gon have to do a whole lot of lame shit.i saw the slides just now during the briefing.woahh .. alot of lame shits.i just hope it ends soon and 6 months aint a joke.its quite long.but urrrghh .. i hope i'll be able to withstand all the bullshit and temptations.sigh .. life sucks eh.hur.i'll miss a whole lot of people.especially my classmates.wellwell .. next 6 months i'm gon be a fuckin' homeboy.i'll have so much time at home.i'll just rot/study/gym.mayb its good in a way .. lose weight and mug for my o's.hur.wellwell .. gon have to make friends with the guys and the two girls.zzz .. dam lame luh,but i have to.ahwell .. dunt hv the mood to do neshit man.HA,u guys feel free to come down and visit ME! =))

feeel the agony and ; pain.

2005-03-01T21:49:00.001+08:00

matts backkk to haunt .. hurhurhur. =)

BOOYA! it has indeed been quite sometime since i last blogged.been caught up with quite alot of stuff.being busy andd lazy to blog.well theres alot of things that have passed and happened.hmm .. i've just got so much to blog about and alot of people to thank.it has indeed been a helluva month.right now its a start of march.hope all goes well and yeahh .. practically change.

lynnnn - btwo.u havee stood by me through my darkest hour since forever.as i've said before.i say it oncemore.no one and i mean no one .. understands me better then u do.u put the widest smiles on my face.brightening my day up.u've shown me the meaning of appreciating myself and picking myself up after every fall.u stood by me like u were my guardian angel.you watched me grow through the years and seen me at my lowest.u were there to make me belive that there wasnt an end to everything.you make me smile differently from the rest. lynn .. u've got my back on anything and everything.i'll be here to see u through all the while just like u did for me.your never living a day alone.i'll always be here for u.i love u.

houcheng - dude.you're my closest brother sides from shawn but still u were there to help me when i needed someone to help me in school and someone to give me advices and such.though we're going our seperate paths now.amigo .. i'll always be around.the smiles,jokes,time spent,would always be memories i hold close and would never forget.the many clubbing
experience and weirdest stuff we do and talk about that would always remind me about u.you my one and only hongkong brother .. would always be remembered.bro .. we'd still chill out together and go out and simply live life the same way as before.now that my new school is near too.looks like brother al-ameen would be of frequent visit ayee.hur .mark,i dont knw how to thank you for all the things you've done for me.i treasure this relationship alot and not in a million years would i break it.there just so much to say abt from giving u knw who code names to sharing the wildest and weirdest stuff.indeed those were sweet memories.well .. i wish u all the best in the poly and whatever it is dawg.u know am always here.i love u a whole lot amigos. =)

shawn - JR texas in the house ayee baby kong?haha.well ..u too are the other close brother of mine we've shared alot .. and i mean alot of weird and funny shit together.giving 07 the name and a whole lot.clubbing at angels .. to all the tua lum pa shit.haha .. and not forgetting all our catchy phrases.you were my shopping buddy and just someone that i could relate to rather well through the years.it wasnt till arnd sec2 or 3 that i got close to u.but dude ..we share a whole lot of memories.u'll always be the babi kung to me and the lil mascot that i use to call u when u were in sec1.all the melbourne shuffle shit would be remembered too.ha yeahh .. so u think your the BOMB! ha no ..hurhur.all this .. dude.it simply just cracks us up in someway or another.shawn caleb kong zi li,wo men shi ba-lah-der for life.haha ..amigoz .. we've got more memories to come.though in different schools .. ma chachos,the weekends are always free.some dj charles for u?HAHA .. soon dude .. soon.muhd sultan to us would be a less frequent place of visit.its gon be phuture and zouk.hurhur..and there,you and houcheng and do some melbourne shuffle aye.then and there we'll see whos the bomb yeah?haha.do well in poly yeah amigoz?am always here if theres anything.i love u heaps dawg.like always .. -muackkkks- love u bom.HAHA.
[P.S am not fuckin' gay aiight]

amanda - amanda tay e-fang!hurhur .. i've got a whole lotta things to say about u man.seriously haha from being my 'teddy' to helping me during my o'levels and guiding me through during the emotional days aye.hurhur .. well.your kinda like a smaller sister to me.your simply too tiny already luh.hurr,i'll always remember and would always tell people ..about the girl who calls me around 3 or 4am screaming and complaining about a lizard in her bathroom and still have to keep u company when i hear the bloody shower.haha .. dunt worry aye,i'll share your infamous stories with my kids next time and tell them what a wonderful friend/sister i have.manda .. u knw u still can call me when u have a dumb lizard in the room aye.haha .. well.u and i go all the way back in sec err .. 2?just that it was only last year that we were close again.well .. no breaks anymore eh.hah.whatever emo days u have or whatsover .. eh eh am here la deh.OK?dont bottle your emotions up yeah?i'm still gonaa be the bestman at your wedding yes?haha and dont forget to invite your two V.I.Ps brendan chua and chua wen hu aye.bad blood must always and good arh.so .. dont be mean and invite.even though they're gon be the last two u invite.hurhur .. manda,be contented with your results and dont let your parents put u down.i know its hard for u .. but aint impossible yeah?your gon do well girl.lovaaa loveeee.

mabilina - uiii!mabz .. musta kn ayee?hurhur.nukkkkkkks .. its been sucha long time since i actually spoke to u but .. still,your still remember and always would.my loveeee!!u bring me heaps of happiness really.back in the phillippines.u treated me like i'd discribe as king.you were my lil princess that was so uber nice to me in everyway.i love u alot u hear me?when i was there u practically spend 80% of your time with me.from shopping at all the malls .. to clubbing at eastwood with the crew.u showed me around and brought all the fun to me.hee,time spent there was marvellous.i'd definately call u when am back there sweeeeetie.i miss all the fun and shopping arnd aimlessly and chillin out at starbucks at greenbelt.well .. my lil angel back there .. u keep the guys goin ga-ga ayeee.hurhur.. my young hot chinita.i loveeeee you.i'll see u soon.BAM!

and those that i forgot .. hurhur sorry.i'll haveee another shout out like god knows when but i'll have another one sooon .. newayz its till here for now .. am tired of typing .. hur.love ya'll. matt .. out!

adios amigos.

heyy.

2005-02-17T02:05:00.000+08:00

well well .. its been quite some time.hmm .. nothing much has been happening.just that i've done quite abit of shopping lately.hur,got some gud deals.nice =) o'lvl results are gon come out nxt weeek .. i aint exactly prepared for the worst.am rather scared actually.well .. hope all goes well.to all receiving your results .. all the best.

bleed likeee no one else did .. shame overpowers u.
tears u shed .. turns out to be a wicked laughter.
u cry out for mercy ..
your soul seeks refuge .. from the one that plays.
your heart becomes weaker ..
slowly fading to disbelief..
eventually beliving love exist no more .

hurhurhur .. does this paragraph on top snd so err. hmm .. sadistic?heh.i think it really is.but well .. its true.newayz .. the bed calls for me.BAM .. matt's out. =)

bam.

2005-02-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

its over and have became history ..

chinese new year.

2005-02-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

BOOOOOM.its on .. happppppy chinese new year yawllll .. hurhur.
its ze second day ov cheena new year at the moment.beeen receiving quite a number of angpaos =)) went visiting todayyy .. was cool.gambled alil on blackjack.chinese new year has been quiteee fun so farr .. well.the first day wasss all gud.stayed home with my parents and bro.haddd a wonderful steamboat.foood was goood .. mom,dad n my bro did alot of catching up.lotza laughter andd stories were shared.loveeeed it!was rather meaningful cuz i HARDLY ever do that with my family members .. so it was all cool.mom shared stories about some haunted house arnd our area.hurhur was rather funny with her actions and all.

well .. today being my dad's b'dae .. hurhur yes it falls on the same day as chinese new year.we wenttttt out fer a sumptous dinner at swissotel,equinox.boy oh boy was the foood gudd .. i ate a whole lot.toook quite a number of pics .. thee view from up there was .. lets say .. hmmm .. breathless.haha as much as your trying to apprehand and at the same time figure out how it seems .. well its much better.everyone were all dressed to kill day.hurhur .. my bro even wore a tie.wellwell .. uring dinner .. mom was tellin' me all abt her life back in ze phil when she was small andd how she used to enjoy livin' by the seaside .. having fresh seafood fer breakfast,lunch AND dinner.hurhur .. my dad also told me .. great grandpa was the founder of ngee ann poly .. with a grp ov his frnds called the teochew colaboration.smthg like dat .. hur thot it was quite coool tho.nv knew ..

rightttt noww .. everything is in a mess.i wantt to get sorted out pretty soon .. been wasting so much time not solving lotza crap.well .. mayb its justtt so much better being alone at some points of time.valentines day .. wud b unoccupied.prob be out with my friends.hurr .. i actually got a whole lot planned out.the plan of the day was .. fetch her from the house .. cab down to town for lunch.then a movie .. followed by dinner at equinox .. and fondue at esplanade.and then .. a nice star-gazing session.hmm .. snds like it justtt went down the drain and the plan got .. boomed?heh.mayb spending timee with my friends would be a more meaningful one and fun at the same time.well .. whts new.its been like this fer the past err .. two years?hurhur.

owell .. hopeee to receive a whole lot more ov red packets for the rest of the new yearr.mwahaahha this is what i call freee income man.its up to hereeee for now.happy new yearrr once again pipol! BOOOM.outta here ..

i walk an emp/ty street ..
on a boulevard of bro/ken dreams ..
[ m a t t ]

chinese new year.

2005-02-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

keep on movin'

2005-02-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

i stand alone ...
deep down inside ov me ...
u aint gon take me down ho ...
nuff' said ... OUT!

pimps in ze crib ma.

2005-02-03T02:38:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeee. fann invades. am sitting here in front of the com at like 2.36 am in the morning. according to pops there's a gang clash back home. how funn. =)) should've gone home to record for matttt heyy. haha.
daddy, mommy and rahhh. haha!

rahh: read this you little brat.

kayys, am outta here. love yuuuu.

fannison ... OUT!

stilletto pumps in the club.

2005-02-01T03:10:00.001+08:00

BAM!havent been blogging fer ages.beeen rather bz and lazy to blog.hurhur.well i justt got a new cell.dad got it fer now..a nokia 7260.marvellous shit i swear.hah.. aint he just sweet.hur.well .. u guys pls text me yer number or smthg cuz i've still got a whole lot of numberz to recover.newayz .. its been dam boring now adayz.and everyday is a routine.holidays aint exciting and fun nemore.its just the starting..everyones having skul and der aint exactly neone to hangout or stay out with.supper is a routine too.dat aint boring but still.i want something different and more entertaining.i want to travel.but i cant..ze o'lvl results aint out yet.rather screwed .. i just want to enjoy my life every dam day and not worry about nething.it just sounds so .. how'd i say.. impossible.yeah .. at this age.its just work work work and study like a mad twat.

or am i justt missing the wonderful things in life?hmm .. i dunt knw why but town is just dead boring recently.since this year.its always to the same place.and same few spots.though i do agree the company with my mates are cool.but i just need somewhere diff.a more different atmoshphere and ambience.i have alot of weird thoughts and suffer frm dejavu recently.am goin crazy.hurhur.things just come and go really quickly.. sighhh everything is just so surreal.. now on ze radio its playing fixing a broken heart.ok now i sound gay goin on bein so sad and shit.HAH.fuckit..indeed its a boulevard of broken dreams.hah..OH i love dat song too!ahah.newayz .. i want my life back on track.everything screws up last yr.

class 95 is marvellous shit in the early in ze morn.all the soothing songs.hurhur..the songs just really makes me think now.abt how izit gon b in future.and howw i'd spend it.and who wud it b with.if only .. i cud see myself in the future.haha.but i dunt wana b old at the moment.am always a childish kid at heart.life just comes by with so many things that sometimes other things just fall out so easily.other things lure u to them life your hallucinating.thats when u really have to sit down.. think and make hard decisions.its unpredictable and just so hard to believe that so many things justt happened and it seemed like it just flew by.well its really how u live life that matters.i wish i lived life like how i expected it to be.mayb i just dream too much .. people arnd are just acting sometimes.they arent who dey seem they are.i just ponder each day.whats it like for me the following day and it goes on..well.i wish everyday would be a happy and eventful one then.nuff' said.bounce outtt nigz!

i aint your average matt.hurhur.

stilletto pumps in the club.

2005-02-01T03:10:00.000+08:00

right thurrrrr.

2005-01-19T02:19:00.000+08:00

well .. first of all.i losttt my fucking phone at sentosa.hur .. rather sad cuz,pics..vids..and alot more memories are in thattt phone.somee indian son of a bitch took it.ask me to go down to d hotel and find him..in d end d basterd offed ze phone.waited for abt 5 hrs hoping i'd see him.NO.. i didnt.hur .. so well if u guys need to contact me.hollar at me on my hse phone or msn aiight.things have beeen dam screwed.heh..whts new.

wuddd b goin to sooon uber fun partys too.its gon b a blast =)) hse party on thurs.and soon a nyp mass com party.all i can say is .. ohhh la la.beeen sleeeeping like hellll lot lately.u can call me a nocturnal person now.. wud b gud to stay in ze USA now hey.hur .. i can wait to b back to philippines.am missssing so much action there.couzin's holdin' all d wildest parties .. booze..chics..fine lukin' cars.WOOOT.wud b goin bak as soon as i ged my fuggin o'lvl results.and bak to phil =)).wud b there for a mth or two so .. neone goin there.HOLLAR..aiight?lately my couzin karla msged me sayin' how many parties theres gon b and how fly everyone is.it justtt makes me even more jealous and thinkin' abt it more.ok lets give u guys a scene of karla's hse party.massive amt of booze,pool side party cum wild party,dancefloor,chics dancin' aw-so-hawt,bangin' rooom,pool/billards,game room,movie room.nice nuff?makin u guys go gaga?hurhur.well.. thats how its like at karla's party.theres gon b one in april.luckily am bak there.mwhaahaha.. its gon be L I F E mahfuckkaaaaz.hopefully i can bring a few close frnds frm s'pore bak there =)

newayz .. down to s'pore.mom and dad was quite peeved tht i lost my phone.i'll have abt 265 numbers to recover and slowly build up my sweeeeet memories in ze new cell.hur.i missss my brother as hell.as i hardly seee him =\.he hasnt gone bak with me to phil..sad hey.he's in screwed up army ryt nw.ahwell.. hope alls fly fer him.

its been a rocky road hey?sometimes we're happy..sometimes we aint.when times we're all fly..its sweeet.times we're cold.heh.. it sucked indeed.all i can say..honestly.a teenage relationship dont last.show me one.let me talk to him/her.and i'll blive.and this point of time.u justtt cant b cold towards me justtt cuz of some lil things.want attention,yes i can givit' to u.but not in sucha manner init'?i havent asked u,its coz am still wondering if it wud turned out gud.i wudnt wana hurt u in d end and leave a bad impression of myself.i kinda know what game yer playin with me,or mayb am thinkin' too much?hmm.i wonder .. the way u tell me abt other guys..u knw am dam straighforward abt things.mayb i just shant blabber more..

my beds callin' out fer me..so nightttttt pipol =)

suppp foools.

2005-01-12T19:53:00.000+08:00

boooooogerrr boooogieee man in ze houzeeeee.
hurhur .. geez.its been ages since i last blogged.ALOT of things has happened.well both and bad tho.haha but screw it.am rather lazy to blog this few days and for ze past duno how many weeeks.well..i'd justttt highlight ze impt ones ayeeee.hah.

wogayy .. fann has already met my parents durin' my brothers houze party.was a blast indeed man.she went on rather fly wit my pops n mom infact.respek.. hurhur.now its all even stevens she met mine n so hv i.hurhur .. well.we've beeeen fly together.each time we fall..we pick up ze pieces rather quickly.which is gud i spose?hmm .. we're currently doin uber,period.

gon b crashin' at acjc tmr .. hurhur and friday too as its matt wan's b'dae.ze bull is gon b doin some ass kickin' yawlllll.haaha .. i'd get to see how ze bloody jc life is.hurhur.. and prob see all d losers frm acsi.ha.its so gona b funnn..hahaha.see some XL fuckers.WHACK only..wellwell.its all in ze name ov fun.

newayz.oh yahh .. tmr its ze liveeee encore ov ze dam carlsberg shit.am so gon b a laughing stock.haha buttt whu cares.barney ze dinosaur is gon makeee you foooools laugh and fall of ze chair.HAH! mayb tht is..hurhur.nuhin muchhh to speakkkk bout' nemore.enjoy yerrr days left on earth fooools.outtttta hirrr.BAM!

dotdotdot

2004-12-28T06:27:00.000+08:00

i loveee u ...
and i miss u ...
i hope i getta c u soon ...
when wud i ... i ponder.

busy schedules indeed do change things.and absence makes the heart fonder indeed.hmm.. how i wish we nv lived in this world.but one ov our own.so i wudnt need to bother abt ze other but u.and all the time wud b to ourselves.wudnt it be great?well..new year is arnd d corner and i hope its gon b with u.aft nt spending my x'mas with u cuz u had work.so much fer plannin'.can someone pls stop time..and just let the two of us live.am a selfish bitch and i want u all to myself.it seems like i havent seen u in eons.wondering each night how u'd be..wishing and hoping dat everything for u is fly.wud life be just like this next time for us?where u work and we'd just hv nt much time for each other..*sigh i certain hope not.we're definately gon make time fer each other yes?ahwell..am being a whiny basterd now.hurhur..whts new ayee.hmm.. i'd pwob b seeing u ltr.its 6.40am now.well..guess its up te hir righttt now.
|P.S your heart is sewed onto mine | night.

hey.

2004-12-25T05:11:00.001+08:00

wellwell.its 5.12 in thaa fuggin' morning and am stil up.not bad huh..newayz MERRY X'MAS to you pipol.hope u peeps gott whtja want fer x'mas aiight.hurhur..well,x'mas eve was quite fun..had dinner with my parents den to church.church was UBER packed and dam lively.i loved it infact.heh..did alil bit ov catching up with my close friends..went te east coast park te chill aft that.but sadly i din really enjoy x'mas eve..din hv dopes company.she was all tired so she wenta bed..hmmmm.justtt hope i'll c u sooon yes sapper?now that your a speedy gonzales.being uber bz..bah.am always here,nv too far alright.we still have our fondue/star gaze sessions on pls.hurhur..well i'd pwob b goin fer some hse party ltr at holland v =| with kenwee and ze whole bunch.hur..its gonna b a blast i spose..am gonaa b sleeeping in bed like big fat cow.wogay..nuff' said fer d day chumps.
love yawllll!

hey.

2004-12-25T05:11:00.000+08:00

screwed up.

2004-12-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

geez.it has beeen going exactly THAT guddd ze past few days.ending d day in a fucked up manner.dymm..gotta put a stop to this man.it doesnt make me feeel ne better any moment after my day.

every dam fucking thing is screwed am actually pissed.heh.what theee fuck is wrong lah i swear.mayb its just me.ha am always saying that.mayb its true.nuhin seeems guddd..ze day went on fine but screwed as time went by.slowly moods changed..surroundings did to.and for a point ov time.i got it.heh.fugggin' diseased man shit.i just dont really understand things.WHY it happens and WHY this and thattt.shit does happen all d time recently.and i FUCKING hate it.and anyone whu dont like this fucking entry.go fucking screw yourself and fuck outtta d world lah.can kisss my fuckin' candyass.hurr.i think i'll get dumb mofos taggin my tag board fer this.heh whu gives a dam.

nuff' fucking arnd luh.justttt a fucked up day one the whole u hear me.
bitch outtt.

heh.ze same ol'shiateee.

2004-12-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

wheeeee-u-weeeeet.
hurhur.i just realised i've been eating at pastamania like dam often recently.geez..like yest.i went with zul and all.today..with my bro dad n kenneth.dym,but ze pasta there is uber.cheap and gud.ok i added like 3/4 ov d cheese in that scoop thinggie.haha,rather greedy but its nice ok.ahwell..i feeeel like a fat basterd now.

well..i justttt got my present frm mom n dad.wasss uber and i love it.hurhur..its uber comfy init and ze material is awesome.haha too early to received my x'mas prezzie ayeee?hur,mom was like hey lefts go get yer x'mas prezzie today.so i was like why not.hah..its some uber wickid zara jacket.sweeeeet man!

ainttt feeeling in suchaaa gud moood now hur.its hmmmm.. 11.30pm yeap.fucked up lahhhh i telll u.but heh..cant do shit.all i can do is like chilll.but urgghhh..its weird.or mayb am justttt weird.wait,i already am so heh.paranoid .. hmmm.mayb.i dunt knw.am oblivious at the moment.and i FUCKING HATE IT.bah,am goin out with haider fer supper to unwind ltr.fucked up feeelings ends with a fucked up day.ok nuff said.BAM!

i loveeeeee u my sappy dappy dooo.
am all about u ms lovaaa loveee.

woah really arh.hur.

2004-12-17T18:33:00.000+08:00

alright alright.i just cameee home from helping josh shift his stuff te ze new house.uber shack and i neeed sleep.his house loooks just like a high class chalet luh.i was starting to like it as i stayed longer in there hurhur.its dym cosy and all..wickid.newayz i havent been having much sleeep lately and have beeen staying up till ze weee hrs.aint gud no..eye bags and shittt.hurhur..fugly.ahweell..its beeeen quite lotta things happening since i last blogged.good or bad..i do not know =)

lets see..i and her brought ze lil brother out te downtown east to play.was kinda fun..lotza pipol gave us weird stares.they'd probebly think we're like parents or smthg..heh.dunt wana b a dad at suchaaa young age no.theres more te enjoy.hurhur..newayz.ze bro justtt went to some ballzy place to place while i and her sat arnd te chill.wasnt thattt bad.beats staying in her hse to stone.i just have a feeling that her house is gonaa b my second home.and so is my house to her.haha..nt bad.went out fer dindin with ze mom d nxt day.at downtown east agn.heh..yes two fuggin days in a row.wasnt that bad either.was feeeling rather bad cuz i ate like alot.cud have eaten more butt..was dam paiseh so yeah.cud hv easily atee hmmmz.. five bowls ov rice.hurhur..but i ate three instead i think.ze foood was great.. =)) ohyeah.nt forgettin ze lil bro.DYMMMM..he's a dude.hurhur..her family's rather happenin' aye.heh.

well.x'mas is arnd ze corner.still hv quite alot ov shopping te do.prob monday or smthg..and am low on cash lah.how to enjoy..heh.have ways..geez.the year seriously pass by like dam fast.it was on ze twenty-fourth dat ze adventure started.now..its progressing rather quickly.hmmz..izit gud or am i still living in my beautiful oblivion.i dont want to.its been fly.oh and i have to say.someone i know is indeeed a BITING MACHINE.geez..am filled with bites now.rather artistic hey.your so gonaa get it lahhh.but its all gravy =)) hurhur.am lazy to blog nemore.am goin te sleeep.GET IT ON PUNKS! peace.

my heart is beating.

2004-12-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

woot wooot!
just came back frm malaysia not too long ago.was uber shacked out when i came back man.it was a really fun trip indeed though somethings happened,it was all gud.has quite alot ov fun..ate like a glutton.headed up to port dickson,thats where we stayed.then d we went to KL and genting too.d cab that brought us to genting..macham drove like a taxi 3 bugger wogay.powerslides..and turbo.massive init! there was this club called 'safari' smthing in genting.it was dym gudd luh.. as nt all ov us wore shoes,money probs and age limit.nt all cud go in.so as this is so.i was dancing like a cow outside ze club.hurhur..there was just heaps ov pipol inside.cud hear em' scCccREeAmMm..hur.it was blastin' rNb and techno,rave.boy oh boy was d music gud man.am so gonaa go back there ze next time and am gonnaa bring equinox with me now.she aint gonaa b left bhind in s'pore.cud hardly live w/o her luh.wus whining a whole lot te her.she wassss awesomee,cuz she accompanyed me most ov ze time and stayg up in ze wee hrs te text.-mwahh mwahhh.hurr..
well while i was text'g her.we thought about xavilyn,dhian and madison.wickid names init.

my kids - xavilyn de'leon basalizo.
dhian de'leon basalizo.
madison de'leon basaliozo.

thats the love ov my life sides' frm my boo.ms fannnntasticahhh..hehe.bahhh,she was just uber sweeeet luh when i was overseas.she too knw am a big baby whining at like god knws wht.hurrr.. but still she stood by me.heh.x'mas and new year shopping is gonna b a blast this year.its gonaaa b uber fun/awesome.heaps ov things are gonaa happen so yeahhh.am so nt gonaa wear any trad clothing.but she is.haha bet shes gona b lookin' fly.weee-u-weeet.wud b seeing her in ze nxt couple ov days.so WOOOOOOTAH!! am a happy bitch =)).bahh.. i missss u sapper!-big fat hug- i'll catch u soooon wogay wogayy.i loveeeeeee u sugaahhhh =D -mwahhhhh.thats it fer nw punks.BOOYA!

badbadbad

2004-12-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

We were standing all alone you were leaning in to speak to me
Acting like a mover shaker dancing to Madonna then you kissed me
And I think about it all the time
Sweet temptation rush all over me
And I think about it all the time
Passion desire so intense I can't take anymore because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

And when you looked into my eyes felt a sudden sense of urgency
Fascination casts a spell and you became more than just a mystery
And I think about you all the time
Is this fate is it my destiny
That I think about you all the time
I no longer pretend to have my hand on the wheel because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you
I feel the magic building around you

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

And I think about you all the time
And I think about you all the time
Yeah I think about it all the time
Tell me it's madness I barely know you
We were standing all alone you were leaning in to speak to me
Ten steps back you're still a mystery
Acting live a mover shaker dancing to Madonna then you kissed me
I can't take anymore because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you
I feel the magic building around you

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

Tell me it's madness
I barely know you.

i love u like i did girl. =)) *equinox.

wogaywogay.its beeen all gravy lately and kinda contented abt everything finally.not that everything has beeen fly for me though.beeen having sleeeping lyka log lately..cuz of irregular sleeping times and uber late nights.till now am still yawning like mofo.but am dam awake.haha..weird but yeh.hurhur i dnt really knw whutta blog abt.beeen quite a blast d past few days.gud and bad happened.heh..well its ovr so its WOGAY.oh yes i swear daph and fann are like cwazy ovr ze wurd 'wogay'.whu ze hell laughs till she goes underneath the macdonalds table and sits there and laughs to herself?haha daph.dat wus uber funny.i dunt knw why but i suddenly love jay chou alot.he's songs are uber luh.certain ones..hurhur all i hv is an jing,jie kou and qing tian.love em' all man.everythings all gravy withhh my sapsap now..awesome.newayz am listening to jay now.hurhurhur.lame luh.. newayz nufff' said.loveeeeee yawlll.cheerz.

girl.i wasnt so bad.

2004-12-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

hmmzz ...
theres just so much things te say since d last time i blogged.
hur.many things happen,gud or bad.all ovit was alright luh.
its beeen so much ov partying lately.late nights.. i ending up sleeping like a log to d wee afternoons and a whole lot ov crap.
am quite complicated abt things happening arnd me.are like things happening fer real or izit just fer their owns sake.or like urrghh..i dont knw.am kinda oblivious to my surroundings now.*sigh* i wana know.whatt u really feel for.am i just spilling my feelings fer u or izzit fa real.bahh..i enjoyed the movies.d time at east coast..to d time we went fer supper but it was closed.every single moment was enjoyable.the laughter,the smiles u put on my face are just UBER.hurr.sit'g at mandarin drink'g/talk'g te u.. to figuring our names in d stars.geez.. it was sweeeet.oh yehh.. lost d bet abt d three star in a row thinggie?haha,its not equinox my dear.its some chim name..my vague memory tells me its orion's belt =D right?hur.each time u indulge in the fondue..haa.i just think to myself.gosh,wudnt it b nice if we cud make dat with her.true nuff.. ha.we're gona make it soooon.the holidays are gona b uber fun init.. goin te all ze diff kinda places.hurhur.. its gona b a blast =) if ze bangkok trip is possible.ohh la la.. WICKID.newayz..nuff said.am tired.HAH..ilu sappy.

mattthalynn =D

2004-11-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

When you have to look away,
When you dont' have much to say,
Thats when I love you,
I love you just that way,
To hear you stumble when you speak,
Or see you walk with two left feet,
Thats when I love you ,
I love you ,endlessly
And when your mad cause' you lost a game,
Forget I'm waiting in the rain,
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway..

'Cause here's my promise made tonight,
You can count on me for life,
'Cause thats when I love you,
When nothing you do could change my mind,
The more I learn, The more I love ,
The more my heart can't get enough,
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what......

So when you turn to hide your eyes,
Cause the movie made you cry,
Thats when I love you,
I love alittle more each time,
And when you can't quite match your clothes,
Or when you laugh at your own jokes,
Thats when I love you,
I love you more than you know,
And when you forget we had a date,
That look that you get when you show up late,
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway.....

'Cause here's my promise made tonight,
You can count on me for life,
'Cause thats when I love you,
When nothing you do could change my mind,
The more I learn, The more I love ,
The more my heart can't get enough,
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what....

That's when I love you
When nothing baby, nothing you do could change my mind,
The more I learn, The more I love,
The More my heart can't get enough,
Thats when I love you,
I love you no matter what....

No matter what.

fug u.

2004-11-16T22:38:00.001+08:00

i honestly hate today.i dunt knw why.. but since d early morn i started feeling dam fucked up.hmmz.. whats wrong?theres just things datt i fuggin' did yest that kinda caused all this shit to happen and shit te happen with my parents.now heaps ov plans are fuggin spoilt and arrghh..every dam thing sucks.i for once blived my gut feeling.and i was dam bloody stupid for not following it fer once.now.. causing all my fuggin'plans to b spoit.i hate it.am just stressing myself mayb.i think am crazy.heh.am fucking outta here.gud bye mahfuckerz.

i cantt seem te let go.

2004-11-14T16:34:00.000+08:00

Dear god,
I know that she's out there.the one i'm suppose to share my whole life with.
And in time.you'll show her to me. Will you take care of her,comfort her,and protect her,until that day we meet.
And let her know,my heart..is beating with hers.

In a dream i hold you close
Embracing you with my hands
You gazed at me with eyes full of love
And made me understand

That i was meant to share it with you
My heart my mind my soul
Then i open my eyes
And all i see reality shows i'm alone

But i know someday that you'll be by my side
Cause i know god's just waiting till the time is right

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day's cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
God will you let her know that i love her so
When theres no one there that she’s not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers

So i prayed until that day (prayed until that day)
When our hearts will beat as one (when our hearts hearts will beat as one)
I will wait so patiently (patiently)
For that day to come (for that day to come)

I know someday that you'll be by my side
Cause i know god's just waiting till the time is right

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day's cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way (shine he the way)
God will you let her know that i love her so
When theres no one there that she’s' not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers

Is beating with hers
My heart is beating with hers
It's beating with hers

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day's cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
God will you let her know that i love her so
When theres no one there that she’s not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers

Oh..it's beating with hers
(it's beating with yours).

girl.its been sucha long time since i last saw u.so much things have been happenly when yer away..nt being able te b hir with me.sometimes.. all i cud do is just think back at all d happy times we spent te make myself smile again.baby u knw your the one.matthalynn is gonna happen again.am nv gonaa let go.you know am always here if ders nething..nva too far.soon.. i'll get to see u.theres just so much i wana tell u.if i cud.i'll sit down with u and talk to u thru d night.ders just lotza things te say infact.theres just gotta b a right moment and mood fer it.every little thing u did fer me was very much appreciated.wudd u hold my hand once again and walk down thee line with me..soon we will lynn.we will.. u and i.all theee dreams we had.are so gonaa come thru.wedding plans.. giving our child names..to how we're gona spend sundays with the kids.talia.tiara and raphale.are still loving u..so am i.i just wish d rest ov d world never existed and just d two ov us.take me away to a land where its just d two of us.where we can live happily ever after.snds like a fairy tale and makes everything so surreal.butt yes..its gona happen.its just with u that i feel everything is ok.everything is in place and everything is just gud.i dont knw whut kinda emotions am goin thru now.am happy fer u dat yer happy and sad at d same moment dat u arnt arnd that often.each day i pray..fer u te come back into my arms.no one..and i mean..no one understands me better then u do.i ponder d past few nights wondering how r u.whether your alrightt and having a gud sleep each night.keeping yourself warm n all.lynn.. i miss u so so much.nownow.. remember btwo.. smile!dun gaze into blank space andd dream ayeee.hee,bahh.. wud b seeing u this monday or mayb later fer supperr.woooooooot! i loveeeeeeee u lynnn.mattthalynn.always =D

i'm a hollllar now.

2004-11-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

i'm not in d mood te blog now.i dnt find a point to now.hah.am lazy now newayz.so yeh..been all gud so yeap.BAM! ciao.

its fer tha laydies ya'll

2004-11-02T17:58:00.000+08:00

BAM!geeez pipol..its beeen quite awhile since i last blogged.hurhur.am in thaa middle ov thee o'levels now.beeen alll guddd so far.its english and physics tmr.shuddd b fly i guess.ahwell.. so much things have beeen happening man.i decided to change what am gonaa wear fer gradnight.haha,its gonaaa b bought this sunday.WOOOOOOT!heh,well.. lifees beeeen uber so far.. yes its still muggin.i knw .. verrry boring.buttt,have to.haha.its gonna b over like reallly soon man.so yeahhh.. o'lvl pipol.hangggg in der.HAHA..and we'd b laughing at pipol whu hv skul nxt yr.WHAHAH.a wholesome 6 mths of pure fun.i like ;p.my boooks are gonna b at one corner ov d rooom n collect dust =D.decided to dye my hair on 22nd itself.everybody in classs..esp me,hc,irving,shawn areee all excited abt thee gradnighttt.HEAPs ov pictures are gonaa b taken.and we're justttt gona b lukin awesome man.haha.my group ov frnds in skul are justtt 'UBER'.define 'UBER'? hmmz,undiscribable.yes..they're just that gud.=) weellll.as i sit down and think now..its amazing how a year past really really fast.before i know it.i was only starting skul.and right now..its in d middle ov o'lvls.geez..its really fast.well..its guddd and bad in a way.hahaa guddd dat it pass really quick durin times i hate and bad cuz i get less time ta enjoy.hurhurhur..ok i hv JUST been requested. =| manda tay e-fang said : " halloween is the awesome-est kitten in the world!! cause it's amanda's! ".ahwelll.d cat in d dorm was cuter!hahaa.well.am goin overrr to shawns houze ltr to mugg.join him fer tuition.its hardcore physics day.yesyes.. =) well.up taaa hirrr fer now aiightt.love ya'll.peace.

i wait upon the day.i see u back in my arms again.
on top ov thaa mountains overlookin the lake.
you and i .. lhyanmttna.

these words are my own.
from my heart flown.
i love u.i love u.i love u.ilove u.
theres no other way.
to better say..
i love u .
i love u.is that ok ?

xu[misses//*]wen.

sup punk.

2004-10-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

uiiiiii.kaaamusttaaaa EVERYBOOOODYYY!!!!! hurhur.wogay am rather high now.dunt bother me.haa.alright..i justtt saw someones girlfriend.and shes uber fugly.lyk fa'real man.shes a kampongified basterd dat types lYkKk tH|s mAyBe?geez.rather cool huh.wellwell..shes cool yes 'verry' cool indeeed.lyk WOAH kindaaa thing.hurhur.nuff' said..bottomline.shes a hmmz..i'd say.fugly muthafugger.HAH.dymm am sucha bitch,buttt whuuu da helll gives a dam.my o's are like over on d 9th ov november actually.whahaha den a long two weeks before my last paper.which is phy/chem MCQ.hurhur,howww nyceeee.i gottta head to thaa shops to git some pimpin' gear on.haha,yes grand night is gonaa b pimpin' =D wickid.wellwell..am uberr happy ryttt now.dunt knw why..lifes beeen uber gud.justt lotza tuitions and study sessions though.BAGUS lahh ..haaa.hmmz..its up ta hirrr fer now.its boogie wooogie wit thaa books again.BAM! boooogie pipol =D hurhur.

suppp mah ?

2004-10-21T19:30:00.000+08:00

supppppp PUNKs.aiighttt..this is justtt a new layout done by erika.was kinda bored ov thaa old layout so yehhh.well,it was home fer today.mugged at home.was rather bored ov goin out to mug.haha..i saw a report on 'get real' on channel news asia bout' bloggin.HAH,it was quite true to a certain extent i'd say.heh,gonna boogie woogie at a houze party this sat.WOOOOTAH!.cant waitt.. well.aft that its only clubbin' aft thattt o's.seriouss sheeeeeet man.well well .. i've gott nufyink muchh ta say.BAM! am outtta hirrr.one love .

girl wuddd u ever b thee one again . hmmmz ... i wonder.

Recognize my presence, this rap game specialized with legends
I drop shit niggaz try to memorize in seconds
You criticize me, still visualize the lessons
and when I wish to put aside the questions
before they find out, who's the realest
Who done spoke without one joke about the illest
shit that ever happened, in this rappin beyond rappin
Joe the God it ain't so hard to start clappin
but I lay low, create flows, for the pesos
Now we got extra hoes, wantin to chase shows
I take foes, and break em down to minerals
We went from street corner thugs to white collar criminals
Individuals, with no peace on the quest
The iced out, piece on my chest, from the East to the West
Never sleep in a sweat, keep the heat with the vest
Ready for the 'casian blazin gettin deep with the best
The police wanna test my strategy, got half of the world
mad at me, but very few challenge me
Perhaps you will be the first to approach this, lyrical dope shit
Cartagena will bring the chrome like explosives

Now what you love huh? Dat gangsta shit
What you want huh? Dat gangsta shit
Now what we live huh? Dat gangsta shit
Dat gangsta shit, dat gangsta shit

Yeah, uhh, uhh
Fuck the whole world, all I need is my dough and my girl
And even she can get it, everybody go to hell
I don't need y'all, disrespect the Don and I'ma see y'all
Hit you with the tech and the armor, you see-saw
That's my steez, if I don't kill you I'ma clap you these
Ask your peeps if I ain't have the beast soundin Japanese
Coughin blood, that's what you get for talkin thug
Run up on your preacher with the sweeper feature coughin slugs
Once a thug always a thug, hallways and drug dealers
Fillers, killers, they wanna chill all day with us
They love the Don, these words are more than just another song
If I said I slit your neck, your jugular's gone
Ain't nothin artificial, Joe the God, the Terror Squad official
Got a lot of pistols with missiles, prayer lies with you
The shit you say'll get you sprayed with the clapper
Just remember Joe the God is not your ordinary rapper

Now what we love huh? Dat gangsta shit
What you want huh? Dat gangsta shit
Now what we live huh? Dat gangsta shit
Dat gangsta shit, dat gangsta shit

Now what you love huh? Dat gangsta shit
What you want huh? Kick dat gangsta shit
What you live huh? Dat gangsta shit
Dat gangsta shit, dat gangsta shit

Yeah
Goin out to all the real niggaz
All the niggaz that support real hip-hop
All my niggaz on the corners
DJ's, no matter where the fuck you from
it's where's your gat, hahaha
Primo whattup nigga? Yeah
Don Cartagena
Terror Squadian, rock the party and, what?
Beotch!!

. [ broken\smile* ] .

bitch u make me hurl.

2004-10-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

booya ! its beeeen quite some time since i last blogged.thinking abt closing this blog and opening a new one.newayz.. its beeen rather boring lately.i'm gona leave aft my o's.date is yet to b fixed.s'pores not d place for me.probebly meet someone better over in philippines.lifes gona b a roller coaster ride till then.heaps ov partyz aft o's.wickid..den life wud b fun bak der.from d start.i never liked living here.in this shithole country..where fucked up ppl live in.i wished i never met fuckers.my wish goes on.. theres just so much to say.all i ever appreciate is is brotherhood and friends.the end.nothing else.its back to an int'l skul back in phil probebly.aunts loookin fer one.i wana fuck outta s'pore asap.so i dunt hv to face fucktards.if i had one wish.i'd wish i never lived in singapore.never ever came or existed in this part of asia.but my parents did.so .. am unlucky.s'pore education sucks.every fucking thing do.whats new when ppl leave s'pore.heh.i wish am in phil now.no fucking things on my mind.well .. nw is just pure muggin.oyes MATHALYNN is OVER ppl.haha,dunt ask me why.go figure.its simple and dumb.if u do figure..smart.if nt..ur just plain stupid.right now,its new chic,new life.get me?yes.well.its just up to here right now.HAH.fuck love niggaz.!

whaaaaazaahhh.

2004-10-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

well well well..its beeen quite some time.am bunkin over at leslies houze tonight.ahwell.. its beeen quite a ride d past few weeks.lotza shiiiits beeen happening..buttt coping well.gettin ova hmmz..stuff.beeen muggin likaa blooody nerd man.cant wait for d o's to be over.after thatt..its clubbing,chics..more chics,sleeep overs ,houze partyz and alll.DYMMM dawgggz,gonna b helluva fun niggaz! greatttt.now all i can do is suffer and mug.since theres no skul..but this coming monday.its back to skul coz i'd b having my science practical.I'M UBER HAPPY! cuz i can seeee allllll my frnds back in skul.dymm.anddd how can i forget..MY CORNDOG!!!!!! i swear am gonna eat at least four.i can imagine how its gona b after the exams aiight.newayz.wud blog agn sooon aiighttt.takkaire pipol..peace*

fuck u right back.

2004-10-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

whudd mahhh niggaz wanttt.

2004-10-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

whoozzz in thaaaa houzzzeee pipol !!!

damm am feeling in pretty high spirits.am quite happy..HAH!i dont know why myself..remember matt's a psyko?yes..heh newayz.haddd a pretty gudd day today.wentt early in d morning to skul.had my CORNDOG!!!!!!!! gosh,i swear it tasted dam gudd.. told d stall uncle i got suspended.he told me its ok..haah,cuz he was worst last time =| I FINALLY GOT SOMEONE TO ACCOMPANY ME..during my days of suspention.its ah hu..haha.its wogayyy.we'lll mug hard togedda.newayz its about a week more of skul before thaa o'lvl pipol r gonna hv study break =D marvellous init'?then everyone can come togedda and mug.BEST!i wouldnt b so much of a loner now.ah hu joined me at serene arnd 1..was studyin' alone before that.then i headed for tuition.. then back to serene to mug till abt six thirty.i did quite abit of maths.but was stoning most of the time.it sucks..i know.haha.theee best part of today was to go back to skul and see my frnds.though i only saw two..it was gud nuff' to make my day.it was houcheng and mahesh.dymm i loveeee em' too muchh LAAAA.haha..newayz.i heard frm ah hu thatt while suspension i aint spose to step into skul.or even b outside d skul bustop.thattt fucking sucks man..haha like am some criminal or illegal immigrant siaa.GEEEEEEZ!haha i wonttt givaaa dammm.. i'll still go to skul.. and see my frnds and have MY CORNDOG!!! whaha.well.. its justt chilllin' for noww.. nuff' forr d day.adios amigos =)

boughetto.

2004-10-05T14:00:00.000+08:00

sup ya'll.alrightt its been home study fer abt two days already.it aint that bad actually..i get to get up late and i do moree wurk then i do in skul.hah.wud b dropping by school tmr.. to visit.ahwell.. sometimes its boring cuz i've got no company with me at home.justt rot in my room.. blast music and do my wurk.am quite satisfied with what i've been doin throughout this two days.did quite abit of maths and chem.i dunt really hv much to say cuz everything just seems dead to me.wud b goin to d gym ltr.. am feeling likaa fat ball bouncing arnd.

somehow i feeeel alil distant from u.prob cuz ur alil too bz now.. sigh,i aint sure when am i gona see u nxt.ur gonna b bz with yer frnds aft exams.meanwhile.. ur muggin hard.whens d next timeeeee? ahwell.shall learn to live with it then.am ouddaa hirr.peace.

life is turning bad.

2004-10-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

i seem to be doing things that really screws up my life lately.things that wud spoil my dreams.sigh* whattt cud i ever do thatt wud turn back time.and change what i have to do..i really hope nothing happens.i wish time wud just stop.everything wud..i dunt wish to continue this misery and agony i have inside of me now.i'm clueless of everything now..too lost,too scared.am doing such dumb things when its just a month away from my o'levels.mom and dad are justtt dam dissapointed.my brother wud b worst when he comes back and i tell him everything.its gonna b hard..just to tell my brother.its really gud coz i have him at home and i can justt share all my problems with him and justtt cry my hearts out if i want to.yet.. he sits down,listens to me n advices me.i've just got too much to say.and i can really express what i really feel.i dont wanna leave singapore n back to the philippines or to australia to study.i dont wanna leave my frnds..esp lynn.its hard..i dunt want it to happen.i'm too stressed up about the things i did..regreting on all d things.but.. its too late.gott to face d music.my temper is justt.. to me.. bad.in my mind.. all i think about is just to have that inner smile of myself back again.just letting go of all my worries and pain.living a day normally..not waking up to a day dat i know that i have heaps of problems in mind.the feeling really sucks..i wish i never existed.mayb it'll b a plus factor to more people out there.i dont know..i'm gonna missss all the fun i normally have in school.the company of all my gud frnds.guys u know.. u ppl are always there for me.standing by my side.. especially houcheng.. dawg.u'd stood by me..watching my every step in school.advising me..sorry for letting u ppl down.i dunt know whatt i'll be in school without u guys.shawn.. you've always been there for me too.heard my problems.. n when i was crying over the phone.u were there to hear me.helping me in studies and all..thanks.irving.. i had your back in every problem i had in school.helping me through lots of stuff..standing by me too.mahesh.. dawg! u've always beeenn help to me too.making me smile when i'm down and what not.chris.. dude..eh kao brother.we've been thru quite abit together huh.gettin busted for cigs..to helping u with thatt nice 'vcd' of yours.i hold close all this memories i have withh all this gud frnds of mine in school.they've make me realise who i am.i'll be lostt and just useless in school without their guidance and advices.mostt importantly.. LYNNNNNN!!! geez,u know me the best.in side out..u heard me whine.saw me cry..seen me in my ups and downs.u bring back my smile each time i was down..making sure i'd be fine each pasing day.u stood by me no matter whatt..sorry for all that i've done.be it being a bitch each time.. feeling insecure about things..and just everything.i really dont know what i'll b without u .. no one knows me better than u do.u know d childish side of me..and d bad side of me.yet,ur loving me each passing day..wanting the best for me.thank you.our dreams togedda wud come true.. we dont need anyone else but ourselves.we've beeen through so much.really .. i dunt wish to live a day without u by my side.am still lost.. i neeed your guidance.am always around if u need me too.just as how u bring the smiles to my face..baby,i want to do so too.tell me whattt u really feel each time.not putting a smile..just to let me know your fine.deariee,its not what i want.sighh* sometimes i justt say stuff that wud make things worst..all i cud do is to pray and to ask god to give me strength to live the next passing day.give me the courage to carry on with life.and guide me through.i'll misss having my CORNDOG in schoool.my favourite snack =( *sniff.i'll definately go back to school to eat thattt and visit my classmates.rightt now.. i'm justtt smiling on thee outside.but deep down..its just pain and confusion that i live with.when wud i ever be able to smile again.. wud someone tell me?wud someone justtt tell me..when wud everything justt be fine for me.WHEN?! urrgghh.sighh.. shall leave now.hope everything is gonaa b fineee =(

i wishhh ..
i hope ..
i pray ..
for forgiveness and dat everything wud be fine ..

GOD .. i need u.
lynn .. i need u.
shawn .. i need u.
houcheng .. i need u.
irving .. i need u.
chris .. i need u.
mahesh .. i need u.

i loveeeee.each and every single one of u.alot..u mean alot to me.the ones dat knows me.
the ones thattt care.the ones dat sees me through my ups and downs.

* GOD please change me .. i dont wana b who i am.

i'm lost : i'm confused : i'm scared : i'm dependent on people :

i wanaa SMILE once again.
could anyone please help me .. sigh*

f c u k

2004-10-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

i swear today is the worst day of my life.i just got fuckin' suspended from school till o'level begins.so thats about a month at home.justtt cause i wacked up some black guy.i dunt knw what am trying to do.to screw up my life each day.things hasent been goood for me d past few days.dats for sure.i'm super trouble n stressed up.sometimes i wish i was to die d next day.every thing is dawnin upon me.it sucks.its super uneasy for me.now i can hardly go out.mayb its gud.den i can start to buck up on my studies.sigh .. i wun get to see frnds in sch for abt a mth.hopefully outside.i'm dissapointed with myself.. mom and dad are just as dissapointed.sighhh.. would someone justtt take away all my pain.its killing me each day.dad is gonna send me to a psychologist for anger management n fer my studies.totally f up man i swear.guess everything happens for a reason .. i wana do well for o'levels so dat i need not leave s'pore.i'm justttt tooo depressed now.. am a goner.

life sucks.indeed.

fuck .

2004-09-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

your gone.
i dunt feel u no more.
too bz ?
fallin' apart . .
fucked up.totally.

say niggaz whuttttt .

2004-09-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

well.today is a rather boring day.. went to town aft sch to collect my wallet.den headed home.wasnt really in d moood,but heh.. ate den i rested for awhile before goin for gym.i feel weird d whole day.dunt knw why .. had a gut feeling yest smth'g bad wud happen.heh nutin' so far =| ahwell.i dont bother.heh,on d whole i just hate d day.hope it end off with smth'g guuddd today. shant whine nemore.fuckin outtaa here.. peace .

say niggaz whuttttt .

2004-09-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

uber day .

2004-09-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

dymm niggaz.today is a uber day =) othaa den geddin back some results.. it was ok.pretty fun today tho.fucking gucci called me abt 10mins ago sayin' i can finally collect my wallet.mwahahahaha.. i'm uber happppy ;p.i gottta seee lynnnn' aft my sch.. chilled awhile den vic wenta buy her pet gadget.some tamagotchi..smth'g like that.haha,den it was home aft dat.was shocked to see spencer and co. cycling arnd my estate when i and my mom wer chillin' in d patio..hah.well nuff' fer today.peace =)

[*spinnin' .. cassidy feat. rkelly - hotel ]

..| parokya ni edgar - saan man patungo |..

magdamag naggigitara ang bagal ng gabi
ang daming iniisip ngunit wala namang masabi
nagsawa ka na ba? subukan mong tumawa
tigilan ang pagiisip ipagpatuloy ang pananginip

hindi ko maalala ang lyrics ng kanta
kahit ako ang gumawa iba naman ang nagsalita
mahirap talaga pag inaasahan ka awitin na mga tula
na nagmumula sa pera

d ko inakala na magkakaganito
wala namang nagsabi na malabo ang mundo
d na rin naming inaasahang maintindihan
alam naman nilang wala kaming pakialam kung san man tutungo
at kung kailan kami hihinto
kung bukas man o bukas pa tuluyan nang tapusin ang kanta

gising hanggang umaga hindi mapakali
pinipiga ang utak ngunit wala paring masabi
kapag pinilit mo at hindi na totoo
ang awit na natapos ay mawawalan ng tono

*wag mo na silang isipin pa
ayoko ng gayahin ang iba sa pagkanta
hindi na dapat pagbiyan
ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan
wala na dapat tandaan pag tayo ay nagkakantahan.

woooooot woooooottt
mahal na mahal si darling ko =)

checkin'

2004-09-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

sound checkk .. microphones 1. 2. 3.

its beeeen a really boring day today.aint sure whadda hell am gonna do in d later part of the afternoon.heh.hope i hv fun later and smth'g nice happens to make my day.i dunt know.

[ *spinnin'.. savage garden - i want you ]

Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby

I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be
Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby

i'm lost.each day u arent here.
bside me.to ensure me.

whuttttt .

2004-09-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

aiightt.todayy wenttt off pretty well,woke up rather early though.been d same.. went to school.saw fuckface.he's still bein' a retard.HAH.useless MOFO.he went like 'oh did matt irving n hc block me from msn' whaha i heard a very goood news from my friend.he gave his answer..it was obvious nuff' was a YES DAMMIT!haha bloody sai bin gao.. useless.neways nuff' bout d 'dooooog' hah.physics paper was alright i suppose.i have a dam bad feeling i'd fail.heh,i suck at studying.it hates me too.bah..i guess i have to work hard cuz i'm being forced to. =| ahwell.heck it!went to town with shawn to shop after school.. went lotza places and saw heaps of things we wanna get.got myself a t-shirt.dymm,project shop bloodbros indeed hv nice clothing.saw a really nice pair of pants.feel in love with it.next week!i'd geddd it..mwahaha. =) it seems gay butt dymm i kinda love shopping.hahaa,shopping partner always seems to b either houcheng or shawn.we had 'lunch' arnd 10.30 at lucky plaza =p home of thaaaa ..? haha.u shud knw *grins* i hadddd viking hotdog man.anddd mmmm .. it was delicious! well..we headed off for our window shoppin' again.. loooked at quite alot of nice tops and jeans.i swear am gonna get that pants i feel in love with.geez..simply stylish.whahaha snds likeee ..? haha sweeetie.. u shud knw who =) and oh a note for ms stylish,i heard from my indian frnd dat MUTHU'S CURRY having very cheap buffet.whaha.newayz,headed home arnd 1.45 or so .. was pretty shacked out thoo.well i can back from my run not too long ago.was perspiring lyk mad man .. haah.ran abt 4km.did sets of crunches,pull ups n sit ups..all cuz matttt's too FAT =).HAH! shall find a running partner,but guess i'll kinda die halfway.haha.. aint got no stamina dawg!dinners commin sooon .. its some oxtail thinggy.loooked nice ;p . BAM! ok.. dats all for todayyy.adios amigo!

[ *spinnin.. the grim reaper - the roof is on fire ]

I talk to you but it's not the same as touchin' you
And every time you whisper my name, I wanna run to you
Well be together, it won't be long, it won't be long
But it feels like forever, and it's hard to be strong

Baby 'cause I'm missing you now
And it's drivin' me crazy
How I'm needin' you baby
I'm missing you now
Can't wait 'till I'm alone with you
To show you how I'm missing you now

Wishin' you were here by my side is all that I can do
Got my arms around my pillow at night, they should be holdin' you
Thought I was stronger, how could I know, how could I know
I can't take this much longer
It's so hard on my soul

Baby I just can't wait
Till I see your face
Chase away this lonliness inside

When you're close to my heart
Right here in my arms
Then and only then
Will I be satisfied
I'm missing you now
We'll be together, it won't be long, it won't be long
But it feels like forever, and it's hard to be strong.

*baby am longing to have u back in my arms each time u walk away.
am lostt and empty without YOU.sugah u make me FLY =)

bam!

2004-09-22T20:45:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking about the night
We held each other so close
Had the words locked up inside
We finally let them go
And how we promised together
Forever that we'd never fall
Oh, with a passion that felt so right
Deep in our restless hearts
Nothing breaks the ties
If only love survives
You put your faith in me, now I believe

You're all that I need
In this crazy world
You're my peace of mind
Just hold on to me, we can make it girl
Through the troubled times
The shelter in my life
The air that I can breathe
You're all that I need

Through the years you've loved one man
And always let me know
Found the strength to understand
It's been no easy road
You've never given up
Can't live without your love
I'll put my heart of the line
Until you believe

You're all that I need,
In this crazy world
You're my peace of mind
Just hold onto me, we can make it girl
Through the troubled times
We'll run with a dream, run forever girl
Till we reach the other side
You're all that I need

I can face the fire
When you stand beside me
You keep my heart inspired
The way you believe

You're all that I need
In this crazy world
You're my peace of mind
Just hold onto me, we can make it girl
Through the troubled times
We'll run with a dream
Run forever girl
Till we reach the other side
You're all that I need
You're all that I need

baby take me to a far away land.
where its justtt YOU and me.
dont let go ..
we're bound for life.
together as one . iloveu*

..

2004-09-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

fucking boring and a mutha fucking fucked up day..

i'm a fucking paranoid basterd.cant i b one huh?
no one wud ever fucking understand how i feeel.NO ONE!
i hate it.i cant take it.
this is simply killin' me .. i'm showing injustice to myself.
nvm,i'm d cause.sorry.

i spoilt your each n everyday just to hear my cry n bitch bout stuff.
now u heared how i am when i'm paranoid.am being a bitch.

sorry .
i just need YOU .

fuck u rightt back.

2004-09-20T13:01:00.000+08:00

fuckk all u whores n fucking pussified basterds who think ur gonaa take gerlynn away from me.FUCK U ALL. =) i have to tell u.. wu ji lo lai.qi kua mai.. no matter who u are.curse your whole family to HUM GA LING arh.whoeva is fucking outtt der taa gun me down.FUCK U RIGHT BACK MUTHAFUCKKAAAAA! go play with your polly pocket or whateva fuckmons u've got.suits u guys.lim peh ka le kong .. mai siao siao ah.gottt d balls..face it.

fuck u righttt backkk muthaafuckkaaaa!

baddd .

2004-09-19T14:58:00.000+08:00

i hate every dam thing recently.today and yesterday was a bad day.dont know why.dont ask.u dont seem to b like urself.why?or mayb its just me.*sigh i dunt knw.nvm .. shall find a way.

lifesabitch. totally screwed.
wish it'll just ..
-end-

smile.

2004-09-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

nigaaaazzz holllar hollllarr! ogayyyy.haddd a prettty tiring morning.cudnt geddd ouddaa bed.was sluggin myself here n theree.badbad!it wass lit paper today so i revised ma text in d car.first time =\ prob cuz its prelims dats why.bahh.. nehmind.felt totally likaaaa nerd.thaaa paper was alrightt.. din really write much buttt.. i guess i wrote nuff'.ahwell.. headed down for someee rotiiiiii prataaaa and milo dinosaur at brotherr ameeenn.dymm.. was fuckin' funnny when chris used d tissue prata as a 'hat' knahmean?haa was laughin my ballz off man.was there with brotherr houcheng,chris,zhenjie,nestie n hardi.we simply justt chilled there n enjoyed some prata.when we wer bout' ta finishhh.. dymmm.. hc's pri sch teacher came.ohh la la.. aileen chan equals to steamer man.haa,aft dattt i head'd homeee.wass pretty sleeepy tho =\ dozed off fer abt a min or two durin thaa exam.haha,its beeeen slackin all d while.studyed forr abt an hr or so justt nw..too bad i lost concentration.haaa.am justtt gonna waittt for dinner sooon chilll aft datt =)

*babycomecloseletmehugutillthamorninlight.

ahhwell.. my brother left for his army training camp in taiwan =( misssss thattt thattt MOFO lykkkk helll.no one to bitch to andd share my crapp.haa nehmind.. stilll haveee lil'bambam.hee,he's away forr three mahhhfuckin' weeeks yaa hearrrr me?dymmm.rather long..haha,lets seee whattt he gedds fer me frm taiwan.so nowww its me,mom dad n hsemate kenneth.mayb i should really show u guys his picture one day.haha comments pleaseee =) ahwelll.. gotttta go.bammm! am ouddddda hirrrr.

-[snoop dogg ft. silk the shocker - gangsta ride]-

It's a gangsta gangsta ride
On the nutty danger side
As we ride, dip and slippin
Take your mind, on a high

Yo yo, from that DPG nigga to the CP3
Back to the house, East to the West
Now take it BACK to the South
You know.. how I switch my flow
If I'm lapsin you glad niggaz'll get mad then, hit the flo'
Gotta bag me some dank so I, hit the sto'
In the winter it's the Hummer for the summer it's the, six-fo'
Got niggaz mad at me (why?) Cause they can't get no six
Bitches upset with me (why?) Cause they can't get no dick
I'ma be on top of the game whether I'm, broke or rich
I don't stop once I'm on top I just drop mo' hits
I'm in the club with the thug, I just pop mo' Crist'
Tell Snoop to get the Coupe his new shit I just, gots to go get
Cause when I cock my shit, usually I pop my shit
Tell all you teary eyed females gettin over-offended
cause I don't jock no chick
I'm the Boss, and I don't follow no person, I follow Jesus
Y'all blame a bunch of kids, so I gotta roll my Adidas

Boom bam as I step in the jam, god damn
Don't need no introduction, cause you know who I am
The S-N-double-O-P, the only, fo' sho'
Now motherfuckers let me hear you say hoe
I spit ya, spat at ya, whoot wham, get at ya
Rider, I threw a slider, right at ya
Mash ya, gat ya, drip-drop the hatchet
Keep the party crackin, while I'm steady rappin
This game we run, y'all know what's happenin
We back in effect, we got the heat on deck
I'm slidin down South with a blunt in my mouth
I catch a plane out East and try to make some peace
I'm hangin with my niggaz in the projects
The homie's throwin a party, I gotta get back West
Oh yeah -- that's right, we are the best
No Limit DPG Southwest connects, ya feel me?

Keep it gangsta
Keep it gangsta, keep it gangsta dogg
Keep it, keep it gangsta dogg
Yeah, we keep it gangsta dogg
Fo' sho', we keep it gangsta dogg, what?
Yeah, I wanna say whattup to all them gangstas
out there on the Eastisde
(on the Southside, on the Northside) Yeah
(on the Westside)
Y'all niggaz need to point the guns in the right directions
Ya know, ya heard?

*spinnnin' .. [ fordafite - ged up ]

bammm!peace*

booya.

2004-09-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

aiiighttt okok.its beeen a long day.wokeee up ratherr late cuz chinese paper 1 started arnd 11.25 =) welll.. it wentttt on pretty fine.what mahh tuition teacher taught me,all came out.hahh no biggie buttt.. at least i knw whd i was writing and doing.hee,i'veee been really lazy taa blog this few days.dont knw why.righttt now am justtttt simply misssing gerlynn alot =\ bah.shes ova at yunx hse.hee,hope shes not eating peanut butter.dearrrieeee.. fatttty watttty u knw =)).i wasss reallly hungry when i gott hm frm tuition so i gobbled down someee hersheys milk chocolate KING size =p i'm crazy n deeeeeeply in loveee with her.bam!shessss my loveerrrrrrr.n FUCKKKK ALLL U FUCKIN PUNANI'S WHO STEAL HER! i SWEAR i'd fuckin wackkkk daaa fuckkk outtta YOU.*amen to u.i duntt ever wanna loose her.NEVER.shes mine.mine to keep.mine to hold close.just MINEEEE forever.shes thaaa best knahmean?most importantly.shes MY WIFE =) hee,ok am insanely happpy noww cuz am gonnaa seee her thisss friday anddd saturday =p wheeeee.it'll b goin ta church on sat. [soulllmastahhh cribbblin' thaaaat sheeeeeet aiiiight] wickid!

i misssss eu* andddd i heartttt eu*
itsss mattthaalynnn anddd banana powerrrrr !

welllll.OHHHH i forgot to telll u guys abt my NEW housemate.ok here it goes.he's 15 this year.currently studyin in coral sec.my first impt ov him was dattt ok thisss guy i reallly geeeky.he's like in d smartest class.haha KAMPONG LAH!!! hee,his girlfriend is like top 5 in sch.. verrryyy goood.well,his gott a 'great' sense of style tho.like serious supaaa cool.giordano jeans n billabong shirt.hmmz.. rather cool huh.gotta learn taa dress like him.dymmm i idolise him.hahh.RIGHTTT! well.honestly now..his seriously a nice chap.easy goin' and justtt plain nice.i like him tho.if u ppl come ova u can see him.butt i warn u.. DONT bully him =) cuzz.. welll his somehow a 'brother' to me.heh.andd AM NOT ACT'G =) he aintt my BFF! haa,wokay.nuff' bouttt him..its gonna b dinner time soon..its gonna b maths paper 2 tmr.gonna b hell i guess..nvm,shud tryyy mahhh besttt.heh.aiighttt..booya.matttttttyboyzz outtttt hirr.bammm! peace*

||*when i diee - krayzie bone ft. terror squad [big pun|cuban link|fatjoe]||

Man what the
fuck is we gone do man?
Shit man I can't believe this shit man
Them motherfuckers done killed him
We got to ride for this nigga
On them old hoe ass niggas
I say we ride over right there right now
That's what I'm talking about let's roll

As we delve through the mud and rain
Straight shots of Tangue ease the pain
As we put to rest one of my niggas that got cut up and lost half his brain
Shit ain't the same niggas is dangerous
Buckin like it's the thang to bust
When I looked at my nigga fucked up
I couldn't help thinking this could've been aimed for us
Niggas do hate like that, nigga you never know
He say a friend but I smell foe
So I sit back and wait for the day niggas try to kick in my door
So I sleep with the big fo-fo
But what if I fuck up and pull it too slow
You know what they say gotta go gotta go
What if I be the one breathing no more, oh well
When I die I want all my motherfuckers to ride [for me]
On the niggas that did me killed me committed my homicide
Gather up after the funeral [posse up] and pull out all the big guns
Go through every hood poppin till somebody tell you somethin
How in the fuck can I rest in peace when I wasn't ready to die
So I'm begging my niggas to get my revenge
And do it the same night they put me under
Now I'm gone but this thug shit gone live on
Just write on my tombstone he was that thuggish ruggish bone

Murda mo niggas gone kill some more [nigga you never know when you gone die]
Murda mo niggas gone kill some more [ say never know when it could be you]
Murda mo niggas gone kill some more [they leave yo house and don't come back]
Murda mo niggas gone kill some more [this shit is real and oh so true]

When I die I wanna see about a hundred niggas cryin
Lying talkin bout they all love Ryan
And Joey too, you should've seen him at the funeral
Sporting the top hat tuxedo was royal blue murder who
Nigger I died in the car chase shot the place like the last scene in Scarface
Now I'm in the far place chillin in the whites of the sky Terror Squad till
the day I die

I'ma thug I'ma die high O.D. off the la-la
Niggas tell me get off that weed I'ma keep smoking on that thai-ai
Nigga fuck that I'ma keep hittin that
[Puff puff] till my lung collapse what's wrong with that
You hypocrite just a little bit you know you down with it
It's all good in your hood having laughs
Puff weed to clear my cataracts
Never thought I'd see the inside of an ambulance
But now I'm there too many dead brain cells, runnin round inside my head
That's when I died my eyes were blood shot red

Now picture me dead still getting head in the coffin flossin
Bitches fightin cryin tryin to get a bigger portion
My niggas talkin figuring how to get my fortune
While I'm lost in space waiting for satan and his horseman
Walkin through fire sparkin my lighter cloud the sky up
Rising higher and higher eye to eye with my messiah
Viya Con Dios as I cross the gates of hell
I faced the devil with a shovel and told him brace yourself

Reporters steady ask why KB be talkin bout murder on all the songs
I say cause I could step out the door somebody could pop and I'm gone
Then they wanna know why I pack chrome for one I'm paranoid
Smoking too much of that weed what's that I just heard a noise
Get the 12 gauge and I call my boys
Motherfuckers is plottin to get me I know when I'm dreaming this
So that's the meaning of this
Nine millimeter heater strapped with infrared beams and shit
So nigga don't trip the reaper seem to be getting closer
So I'm running from that motherfucker swervin and duckin murder
Pistol grip pump protected by the gauge
Mr Sawed-Off Leatherface reload the clip and into the crowd I spray
Murder murder mo murder murder kill kill kill
Shit it's selling but what they ain't telling niggas is that it's real
But you better realize for it be you in the casket dropped
Better get you ass a shotgun and go get a plastic glock
Nigga don't take murder for no joke that's like slittin your own throat
But I tell you what'll help for sure is if you bust back at them hoes

-|if your feeling down and low baby|-
-|am rightt here forr u.let me b d one|-
-|should u ever feel like whinin'|-
-|baby am here to listen to your every word|-
-|girl you've shown me how to love|-
-|baby your alll i neeed all i want|-
-|truly.yourr my soulmate* matthaaalynn|-

matttttttty loveeeeees u heapppps gerlynnnnn ho xu wennn =)
bammmm! am outttta hirrrr . peace*

FUCK!

2004-09-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

today's a muthaaaafucking fuckeeddd up dayyyy.fuckk yes.

theee ennnndd*

suppppppp pipol ..

2004-09-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

welll..its been sucha long time since i last blogged.pretty lazy diz days..haha.lotza happy things has happened while i din blog.ALOT infactt.. spending time with gerlynn was simply justt marvellous.i guess its really d person u spend it with that makes everything change.i used to chill quite abit at coffee joints..now i stilll do.but it has changed.its became more fun n justtt lovely.i dunt knw how to describe how am feeling towards her now.shes became more beautiful in many different aspect.shes really the one i bound to settle down my life with.when i'm with her i just cant seem to stop kissin her or justt simply hold her close to me.the bottomline is i'm justtttt truly madly deeply in love with her.i guess she already knws how much she means to me.no one wud everr replace her.and i mean NO ONE.no moreeee stupid mistakes..none of them.no muthafucker is gonna steal her away frm ME! she justttt meann theeee world to me.i'd b losttt if i nva knew her.she light d way to guide me thru each day of our lifes.well..i wokeee up pretty late today..slack'd abit n had breakfast.then here i am now.slackin again..i've gottt fuckin tuition ltr man.this whole hols am a bloody nerd.i've got fuckin tuition every dam day man.even on my b'dae.how fucked up huh.ahwell ..shant b a bitchhhh.righttt now lynn is ov at geri's hse =\ bahhh,here i am at home rot'g n misssssing herrr lyk cwazyyyyy!i wantttt tmr to comeeee.. we're gonaa have so muchhh ov fun.its gonna b a day i'd nv forgot.an occasion i n her wud cherish..a sweet memory we hold close to our hearts =).at this point ov time i seriously think time passes really really fast,like just a snap ov d fingers its 2004.its already beeen two years with gerlynn.love hasnt changed.love is stilll strong.undying.ahwell.. am justtt gonna b slackin' till tuition is aboutta come =).am rot'g away likaaa couch potato.ok am oouttta here..peace*

*whitney housten - could i have this kiss forever

Could I Have This Kiss Forever Over and
over I look in your eyes
You are all I desire
You have captured me
I want to hold you
I want to be close to you
I never want to let go
I wish that this night would never end
I need to know Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could i have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever Over and over I've dreamed of this night
Now you're here by my side
You are next to me
I want to hold you and touch you and taste you
And make you want no one but me
I wish that this kiss could never end
Oh baby please Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
could I hole you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever I don't want any night to go by
Without you by my side
I just want all my days
Spend being next to you
Lived for just loving you
And baby, oh by the way Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever.

.ourlovewudnvchangealwaysbthatsameol'undyin'love.
*//wo hao xiang ni.hao ai ni ya wo de baobei.

its a mahfakin' happy day aiight!

2004-09-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

g-unitttt in thaaaa houzzzeee niggaaz!

haha,its such a happpy day todayy =)) i started it out in a really rush manner.haha cuz i overslept =\ was spose ta meet gerlynn arnd 10.45 but end'd up 11.35 =( sorrrry sweeeeets!.newayz was justtt practically rushing through n then i met josh at tanah merah den we head'd down ta harbour front.haaa we wer such blurblocks..we took d train to another direction instead of harbour front.later on at sentosa.. we tanned for like only 30mins.haha i knw am dark enough but d weather din seem good..so we bathed..aft we wer all done n ready to leave.. d sun came out.haha how nice huh .. we den head'd to harbour front mall fer our dinner i suppose.den it was to town.haa i cut my hair today though.. its mahfakin' shorttt i tell u.buttt i dint regret =)) cuz YOU* made me appreciate it.i wasnt really happy with it cuz i thot d guy fucked it up.butt after awhile i began to appreciate it n i was suddenly so happy.haha am psyko yes i knww.. prob gerlynn sprinkled her loveeee dust ovaaaa me.hahaa,newayz i haddd so muchhh ov fun todayyy.. like chilllin with her n all.we were bothh justtt so smily today.theee feeling was justtt marvellous.i loveeed it!newayz..gotta rush off now .. peaceeee ppl!

my one and only love*gerlynn =))

2004-08-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

wickid wickid,thaa jungle is massiveee!!boooyaakasha dawgs.its beeen a supaaa boring day today man.start'd outttt with a bad stomach ache in d mornin'.haha..den in d toilet.d bloody water came splashin' onto mahh pants.i was seriously stunned.haha i was lyk..'oh fuck..how now' luckily there was a hand dryer thinggie.i skipped assembly tho.haha..n we hadd bloody maths paper 2 mock exam today man.it literally was HELL!i dint knw like quite a number ov questions man..i'll prob gonna fail paper two.haha whats new righttt?ahwell..wentt to d gym with hardi,les,jason,wenhu aft sch.decided dat i should seriously loose more weight.hmmz.. diet infact.like eat fruits n justtt my must have vitasoy =)) dat wud b healthy life style.my breakfast shall b a packet ov vitasoy n bread.am like a fatball now.head'd down to serene to study for awhile..now am at home chilllin.justt had dinner nt long ago.bahhh.. am like feeling supaaa happy now.its like some sudden thing.am weird i knoww.haha but its alll cuz of GERLYNN!dattt i haveeee her back in my arms =)) dymm..shes suchaa sweeetie!am missin YOU* alotttt sweets.i dunttt feel like bloggin nemore.heres a song for u dearieee!

*aslyn - thats when i love you.

When you have to look away,
When you dont' have much to say,
Thats when I love you,
I love you just that way,
To hear you stumble when you speak,
Or see you walk with two left feet,
Thats when I love you ,
I love you ,endlessly
And when your mad cause' you lost a game,
Forget I'm waiting in the rain,
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway..

'Cause here's my promise made tonight,
You can count on me for life,
'Cause thats when I love you,
When nothing you do could change my mind,
The more I learn, The more I love ,
The more my heart can't get enough,
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what......

So when you turn to hide your eyes,
Cause the movie made you cry,
Thats when I love you,
I love alittle more each time,
And when you can't quite match your clothes,
Or when you laugh at your own jokes,
Thats when I love you,
I love you more than you know,
And when you forget we had a date,
That look that you get when you show up late,
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway.....

'Cause here's my promise made tonight,
You can count on me for life,
'Cause thats when I love you,
When nothing you do could change my mind,
The more I learn, The more I love ,
The more my heart can't get enough,
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what....

That's when I love you
When nothing baby, nothing you do could change my mind,
The more I learn, The more I love,
The More my heart can't get enough,
Thats when I love you,
I love you no matter what....

No matter what.

i mean all the words in this song sweetie.

[with love.tiara.thalia.raphale.ME*]

bad.very bad.

2004-08-27T17:31:00.001+08:00

geez.. i dunt knw why but lately i havent been feeling myself.everything seems to b crumbling on me. =\ why?i get lotza negative thoughts..am i not meant to b with u?sighhh* i dunttt want to see u leave my side.NEVER.what ppl say about us.. like 'oh its justtt a dream'.its justtt comments.we dunt hv to take it to heart.i'm sick n tired of getting sad n all over d slightest of things.y m i being so emotional diz yr?its a bad year.hope i didnt change.YOU* n areee r spose ta b d happy onez rmb.. we gotta putt alil more faith in ourselves thatt n say.. yehhh it is possible fer us to reach dat day when we hear those bells.to alll u muthafuckin' haters outtt der to put me down.FUCK YA'LL understand.fuck all u mahfuckin punaniz!if u ever try to steal or do anything to me or gerlynn.. yourrrr fucking in forr a GG biatchh!ok,mayb am gettin overboard buttt fuckin' hell.i justtt dont wana loose her.
lotza fucking problems in sch.we have fuckers like u knw hu bitch'g arnd.mahfuckin' battyboy without mahfuckin' guts.your justtt a guy without a backbone of your own.pls gettt a fuckin' life dickhead.
everythings dawn'g upon me.it seems like am losing grip of u too.can u promise me we'd hold on tight n go thru this togedda?nva lettt d past catch up with us.yes indeed it felt like a fairytale d last time.now..we've grown..i dunt want to b any different from d past.am just praying n hoping u'd b right here by my side all d time.am i crazy or am i justt asking tooo much?arghhhhh!!! its justttt been really stressful recently.fuckin' prelims are arnd d corner.i feel useless.i feel like i've not done enough.sighh*

*pls.nva ever let go as we walk this relationship.
..i guesss i'm fucking having mood swings now siaa.mayb i justt cant take reality.am just livin' in my small world..

fuckkk it ..
i cant fucking take d pain ..
am fucking paranoid ..
thats me for now.

sorry .. istillloveu!

i loveeeee gerlynn!

2004-08-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

.lets see.its beeen sucha tiring day.so i wudnt b blogin' that much.

i gaveeeee lil piggy gerlynn a wakeeee up calll at 5.45am today =)) haha coz d she had to go to sch alone.bahhh..pooor thing.it started off greattt cuz it was her voice i heard first early in d morn n d last d night before =)).i was rather sleepy in sch today..haha prob cuz i hate a late night.i studied in sch till arnd 4.30 today.. den head'd home.wenta far east ta do smth'g first though.

noww am justtt chilllin in my crib doin mahh thanggg.
dymmm and am misssing YOU* likeeee crazy girl.

.. i loveeee u n only u ..

- e n d -

lifes beeen great with you* arnd.

2004-08-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

*fly me away to a deserted island.
where only u n i could live.
dunt wana b with anyone but you.
please let me show u how much i love u.
take my hand and never let go.
baby,your thee onee.my soulmate*

suppp dawgs!geez.. hadddd a prettty tiring day in school.i bunk'd ovaaa at my brother mark's place yest!was prettty funnn =)) thanx homz!shall blog abt d stuff i did d day before too..heh ok yest i,mark,leslie,pax,shawn,jason,melon n a whole lotta ppl went to d wake.really sad to see your love one justt live u in sucha manner =( i justttt told lem to b strong n thattt he wud always have his friend.he should b alright as he's strong at heart!gd on u lem!!aft dattt i ateeeee alottt durin' d refreshment..aha cuz i was really hungry as i didnt hv my dinner.. hee,den ltr .. we sat down n justtt ate 'kao lat' somee ground nuts.which wassss superb.ateeee lotsov' em.arnddd 10.30.. mark's momaa cameee taaa fetch us =)).we haddta squeeeeze lyk sardines in d car.haha,me,chentat,melon,wenhu,n mark himself =\.d carr cud hardly movee when we started out our journey =\.areeee we thattt heavy?hmmmz..haha.at nighttt i n mark we're chilllin in 'thaa pad' aiight.haha had lotza funn.. wasss talking to gerlynnn beforeee i wentta bed =)) bahh.lil dumbieee.. loveeeeee u so so muchhhh!!

[24th Aug 04]
niggazzz sayyyy whuttttttt!! i startedddd my day reallly welll.cuz i haddd a early morning call frmmm dearrrrest wife ov mine.hee,dymmmm shes suchaa sweeetie.i justt reached sch when she called.she was bout taa leave her housee..n noww |6.22pm| i'm misssing herrrr like maddd n wondering wht shes doin.text'd her buttt she didnt reply..prob bz or smth'g =\.i gottta experience how shawn,mark n chris sees early in d morning.haha ratherr interest'g ayeeee guys =) it was dymm interest'g in d firstt period cuzz mr tang wenttt to fuck d library bitch upside down man.cuzz dattt arsehole didnt wana lett our class into d library cuz we wer in sucha big group.heh.she learn'd her lesson probebly.nt to fuck arnd with us.ahah.then d whole classs went to d canteen to do our social studies assignment =p how niceee.haha we had blasting R&B thanks to wenhu's ipod n his boombox.basss wasss superb.literally blastin ma ear drums aiight.butt it waasss marvellous!R&B is thaaaaa thangg dawgz.i haddd lotza free periods today.so i was in d library most ov d timee..chilllin at d sofa with ma homz.n we had an entertaining comedian,terence a.k.a matrix man.hahaha he was so fucking funny alright!haha,he's lame jokes justt seeems to b really funny coz ov all d actions he does.haha.ahwell..i head'd down to d gym aft sch ta pump.was withhh wen hu agnn.. yehhh.right aft dat,i wenta wisma ..den home.righttt now am waiting fer ma dinner.gonna hv bandito n zinger fer dinner.heh baddd?haha,its mahhh fav newayz.KFC is d e l i c i o u s aiiiightt!troubled my mom n kinda showed her attitude =(( sorrrryy momaaaa!! am justttt real cranky justtt nw cuz i was really tired.nowww am justttt fine! shalll b patient n waitt ferr dinnerrr =p *munchieeeeeeee.

::dearieeeee,whatever thattt it may seeemm thatt may cause us ta gett upset at times.lett it b.lets nottt lettt it happen again.rmb d few words u saiddd to me.we're a happpy couple.lets remain this way hon.sorry if i may seem harsh to u in anyway today,but i was justt feeling cranky just now.i stilll loveee u like how i always did darling.we've gottt lotza plan'g to do.your restaurent.our marriage.many moree aiiighttt.gonna b fun =)).youuuuur supaaa meannn to me sometimess cuzzz u justttt makeee me missss u sooo much!bahhh,your d last one i wana hear or sleep before i close my eyes.am DEEEEEEPLYYYY in loveeeee withh u gerlynnnnn ho xu wenn!!::

[mattttttthaaaalynnnnnnn]
*iwouldalwaysblovingyoubaby.

hate.

2004-08-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

i'll take into consideration abt whattt u said.heh made me seem like i'm a playa.playing arnd withh u. I'M NOT!

sorry,buttt i ainttt in d mood to blog.
sighhh* wud b here for u.

peace*

FUCKIINGGGGG FUCKKK BLOGSPOT KNN!!

2004-08-19T19:11:00.000+08:00

blogspottt is a muthaaafuckingggg son of a fuckinggg bitch knahmean?fuckinggggg helll.i fuckingggg toooook so muthaa fuckingg cheebai long to writeee a fucking entry n thaa fuckingggg blogspot haddd to cancell to wholee muthaaa fuckingggg thing.FUCK BLOGSPOT!fuckinggg lousy pieceeee of fuckinggg shitttttt!ccb!

leaveeee yaa dawgz witt thiss song.fucking blog tmr!agn,FUCK BLOGSPOT!!!!!!!! son of a bittttchhhhhhh.

.Snoop Dogg - For All My Niggaz and Bitches (feat.Kurupt/Daz/Rage)
Well it's that slow flow, D-O-double-G, nigga
See these other fools but you can't see me, nigga
Who am I? (It's Kurupt motherfucker)
Do or die (We gives a fuck motherfucker)
So slow your roll, I'm In Control like Janet
The loc-est twenty-one year old nigga that's on this planet
Take it for granted, if ya wanna, cuz I'm gonna
grab my strap then clear the corner, beeotch!!

So all my bitches and my niggaz and my niggaz and my bitches
Wave your motherfuckin hands in the air
And if you don't give a shit
Like we don't give a shit
Wave your motherfuckin fingers in the air
Now on a one, two, three who could it be
Comin with a group of gangsta shit for ninety-three
So ninety-four's arrived nigga, back on up
And let me and my Dogg Kurupt fuck shit up
Now can't nobody see me here or there
wherever I bails, I put it down on the ground
Cuz ain't shit for sale in the Coupe
with the beat flossin off gold D's
And my cousin Snoop packs well, you know what I mean
And it don't take much, for the Dogg Pound to bust a cap
in your ass, for gettin us all fucked up
Now check it, it's a callin for niggaz like Doggs
who supposed to be the shit, but steadily bitchin like hogs
(Yes y'all) Walk the Doggs (yes y'all) Yiggy y'all
Stay full of that gin and juice and have a ball

I packs a strap, like that, I kicks it like this
Now how many bitches must get dick?
Before they say, that Daz is that nigga from back in the day
Ya never ever thought I'd see him bustin with Dr. Dre
Cuz I grips mics, I rips mics in half
Hoes be comin to my flat so I can tap that ass
You're headed my way, nigga you best to hit a U-turn quick
So what's happenin? I'm cappin shit up like a Western flick
The kinpin of the clique, top notch
17 shot Glock cocked, so all nigga drop
The run of the mill fool get broke off for tryin to serve
the best Kurupt's era, peep the terror, cuz it's a murder fest
I smoke chronic everyday, so what have we
Another motherfucker, gettin served like some cavy
Now who, drops (ruff rhymes) I got full Juice like 2Pac
(plus I'm) rollin with two Glocks
Fly motherfuckers can't see Kurupt
Hellraisin like Pinhead, beware I'm tearin shit the fuck up
Slow your roll, like your legs was broken
Who's jokin? Rakim never joked, so why should I loc?
Now that's my idol, check the vital rhyme flow doe
Runnin em like Flo Jo, stranded on Death Row
Mediocre motherfuckers die cuz I'm servin it
They can't fuck with or see me I'm mass murderin
[Smokin indo, look out my window I suppose] Yeah
[Niggaz don't understand how we kicks diffrent flows]
(I'm raw like new footage) I'm rugged like a BF Goodrich
(Bring your whole set and get your hood lynched)
[Drop to your knees like a dog in heat]
Peep the murderous styles and the poetical techiques
Check it out, it's Rage, ready for the breakdown
Take down, when it comes to the mic I'm puttin my weight down
And that's 175 pounds of beed
beatin yo' ass down to the concrete
Fool, act like ya know
I'm stranded on Death Row with no where to go, so
What's a girl to do
Take out a crew, or two, a few, what you wanna do?

Throw your guns in the motherfuckin air, we don't care
Niggaz don't give a fuck nigga
About nuthin at all, just my Doggs and clockin the grip bitch Niggaz don't give a fuck nigga
That's why I can kick it so tuff, cuz when times get ruff, my
Niggaz don't give a fuck nigga
The clique i'm with, don't give a sheeit, ya know why?
Real niggaz don't give a fuck.

am outtttta thisss muthaaa fuckinggg shithole.blog tmr!FUCK BLOGSPOT! catchh yaa dawgz laytahz.peace*one love.

fly backk.backk into my arms again baby*

2004-08-18T19:36:00.000+08:00

*//back to thaaa muh'fuckin greatest.

whatttz crackin in thaa houzeee pipol!!dymmm.. justtt gott home from tuition.pretty shack'd outtt..heh.d day started off really well..hee i dunt knw y i was in sucha gd mood diz morning tho =) prob cuz i hatee a wondaafulll dreammm abt gerlynn n myself.bah,cant wait fer time taa fly by..so dat i can get married to this teenage sweetheart of mine.well,i was late fer sch today actually..haha but i fuck cared abt d dumb prefects stand'g by d gates ta d tennis courts.gangstahhh stylaaaa!! =)haha.. j/k.aintt one =p.i felt really sleepy in school todayy..slept during d whole ov chinese i think.slept late d night before dats y..heh.I LOVEEEEEEE GERLYNNN HO XUWEN!!!! bah,haa sorry.. am crazy..i justtt miss her too much =) ma lil baby.i wenttt to town withh irving,chris n houcheng aft sch.. was at far eastt..to steg.hehh..aft dattt i haddd ta head down fer tuition =\ was pretty reluctant to go at first though.coz i was just simply too sleepy n i kept on yawn'g..haa.wenta tierneys at serene ta get some stuff first den head down fer tuition..my cheena teacher gave me 30mins ta sleeep first.ahhaaa,how nice huh.. cuz last time when she teaches me,my head wud just keep droppin'..haa.knahmean?yehh..tuition end'd arnd 4.30.den i head'd to town to check if my wallet was ready.then again..thaa buggaz said it'll take another month.i'll never spoil ma wallet agn!!!have to wait so fucking long justt to repair one gucci wallet.wtf mate.went home aft datt.in thaaa train.. goin back towards tanah merah.haha another incident happened.ahah am always getttin alott of 'free shows' now adayz huh..hee.n both timess.. i gottt first class sits.haah yest i was opp d scene.today..am bside it.its bout this wacko old man blabbering gibberish to this caucasian lady.. d lady was just being polite by reply'g him.i was practically ignoring himm..when i got homeee,delicious food awaited me =) hahaaa i haddd sushi n char siew pastry for dinnaa.haddd sashimi.. n california maki.ateee alottt!!!.supaaaa delicious i tell u.well,am justtt rest'g noww.. prob study later..arnd 10.i study better at night.yeahhh..thatts alll fer todayyy.outtttt thurrrrr dawggies!!!

[dearest teenage sweeetheart/my future wife.hoxuwen.]
..havee i ever told u how much u meant to me.n how much i loveee u.its beeen really amazing how we've been thru so much through this three years.back then in sec2 when i first knew u..u wer datt lil girl dat wud always b by my side n d one whom i've always loved.we've grown older n mature together as the years past.walk'g thru each day with u.spend'g every moment with u.doing d silliest things with u.wudd always b memories i hold close to heart.down memory lane.i wanaa b with u..sit'g down with our children n just tell em' how we've come so far n survived.how this undying love we always shared nva seem to fade.how things felt so magical when your around.u made me understand myself better..u changed me thru many ways.be it attitude or how i face things.its all b'coz of u*.pls lett me love u for d rest of my life n d many lifes yet to come.u made me what i am today.my heart speaks your language.its speaks to me,tell'g me how much i loveee u.n thatt you are d onee i meant to spend the rest of my life with.its you..just u deep down in this heart of mine.each tear u shed is pain to me.each time u cry my heart crumbles.i see myself watch'g d sunrise with u again even when we're older.it wud bring back d many fond memories we have.n d sweetest moment i spent with u.d first time.i wana see thatt smile on your face dat brightens up each n everyday of mine.i'd sacrifice anything.n i mean anything,just to have u back in my arms.you mean alot to me.i wanttt u taa b d one dattt i cuddle each night nxt time.to cover u up when your cold,n dry your tears when you cry.this love we have..wud blossom thru d years to come.u knw me inside out.d true me.d childish me.thank god i've found u..to guide me thru my way.theres just so many things to thank u for.each time u crumble n fall.i'd b there to support u.am your guardian angel.u complete d puzzle in me.your d biggggest piece =p.each time u look at me its just magical how i feel.u see right thru me..u understand me d best.your simply all thatt i ever need baby.let ur walk hand in hand in this relationship,hold on tight as its gonna b a roller coaster ride.its u i love now.its u i loveee everytime.*smmoooochieess.
[18thMay02]
[twogirlsandaboy*]

Lloyd Banks - I'm so fly.

Yea!
Ayo 50, they only do it like us nigga (laughs)
Yea!

I’m So Fly…
An I’ve got money so that’s a good enough reason to buy the things I buy
I’m So High…
An I’m on point and I can tell that you jealous by the look in your eye
nigga When I Ride By…
An I don’t care, G-Units goin straight to the top this year
Nigga Im So Fly…
An I’ve got money so that’s a good enough reason to buy the things I buy….

Banks is fresh out the gutta (gutta)
To smooth to stutta (stutta)
His cig will melt a riva like 2 scoops of butta (butta)
Before I leave the crib I tell my mother I love her
Grab the burna cuz she aint concerned cuz he’s a earna
My bitch lays it out real nice for me to murda
Fight, wake up n’ fuck like Ike n’ Tina Turner
It’s a privilege to ride with a celeb
Cause them girls over three don’t got a problem given head
Paranoia is on ya that’s why your mama is in your bed
Fuck a rare chinchilla and bossin mama for ya head
And where the block im from niggas be damn near 40 and still tuckin
And niggas baby mama is pregnant and still fuckin
It’s eithier cause their boyfriend is a scrub like brillow
Or cuz banks is cooler than the other side of the pillow
The chronic is blown
For my niggas that got locked up and deported and now they gotta go back home

Don’t confuse me with these suckas
Cause when I spit you hear more ouus then a skip to my lil move at the rucka
Thank god for given Banks the gift
You think that bandana makes you look gangsta but all I see is a hankerchief
Nigga there’s no one out the click that freeze us
Believe that cause I aint scared of shit but jesus
Look dawg i dont roam with the poodles
Difference is i'm eating in Rome and you eatin roman noodles
Ya boys corrupt kid
Banks will send a bitch to the store just for a piece of cheesecake like puff did
You jokes cant afford these homes
Look around I got 40 clones now look down that’s 40 stones
And that’s only in the necklace
I’m bony and I’m reckless (vroom) there’s Tony in a Lexus
Im fresh out the gutta scrap whatcha man thought
Im in the hood with more straps than a Jan Sport

When I travel I know Im gonna get stuck
Cause they harrass us in the airport like im the ones that’s blowin shit up
I got the patience of a high school teacher
And a bright future, why the fuck would I have a bomb on my sneaker
Will the goody girls back of us
My hearts colder than jack frost is
We pack shows and attract bosses
Black clothes and my black forces
A black rose for a rats coffin
Blowin O’s in that black coffin
Blowin the road and im back flossin
No one knows how much that’s costin
Fuck ass only the green moves me
I got a clean Uzi A pair of gloves and a mask from the scream movie
So if your plottin on poppin off, sceem smoothly
Or get a little red spatter on ya cream coogy
My name ring each state
So you aint gotta go all the way to LA to get ur mc eight

\\iloveeeeutrulymadlydeeeplyhoxuwen!\ [its just u n i in this world ov mine]

you're tuned taa thaa muh'fuckin' greatest.

2004-08-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

BOOOOOYAAAKASHAAA dawgs!!!

::guess whos back.back again.playaz..respek'::

haha,its beeen suchaaa fucking long time since i last blogged man.dymmm.. FINALLY got back ma internet like a week ago only..tooook supaaaa long.hadta go ta maa frnds hse n in sch ta check all ma stuff.geez,hopeeeee yaa guyz r doin fineee aiighttt.still loveee ya peeps =)

**lets see,it started outtt a very moody day for me i suppose.dont knw whats kinda wrong withhh me.heh..wuz really cranky n all.thot it wud b a reallly bad day n all.but it turned outt preettty fine =).infacttt it wassss fuckiing fun in sch todayyyy.haha.some things in sch made me smile n made my day.my friends definately.first lesson was math,was dat badd..haha i think d teacher kindna hates me cuz i take like ages to sit down when i get ta class.its some replacement teacher fer dj simster cuz he went fer re-service.still prefer datt bloody dj.well,i finally cuttt off my lil tail i always hadd.haaa,wasnt suchaa bad job cuz my hairstylist mark liu did it.I LOVEE YA DAWG..righttt thurrr nigga!!n my othaaa counter part bOi^aPi..haa,he gottt his tail snapped off.dymm was sadd as his was lykk pretty longggg.aft datt it loooked preetty weird.so i trimmed it up fer him.heh.i haddd dat kinda shitt back earlier diz year.supaa fucked up aiight.in ourr class we have a SWAT teamm.haha its thaaa best n funniest thing taa happen.it all cameee about whenn all d non-POA boyzz we're chilllin outtt at our usual chillout lounge bhind d POA clazzroom.i noticed dat d open'g leadin' to d sch rooftop was open.so i wenta to alil testing..haha.when we discovered it was open.DYMMMMMMMMM!!!!!! all i haveee to say is my fav phrase 'piece of heaven' aiighttt.supaaaa g'shit.alll d non-POA boyzz headed up theree taa check things outtt.thaa view was justt fantastic!!only seby n bren stayed below to loook out fer teachers.i'm d demolition unit.haha ridhwan is d team leader..n his our classs moniter..ahahha!we've gott abt 10 odd ov us.we're call'd SWAT.ahha we moved arnd d rooftop kinda sneakily.didnt wana get spotted cuzz we cud b seen frm d fifth level.haha..we chill on top..chit chattt n practically justtt fuck arnd.haha..supaaa nice place.TODAYS MISSION WAS a VERY scary one.hahaa,we nearly gottt busted dawgs!we all decided to move up to our chill outt spot.d roof dat is..ok here was d situation.. at first it was all ov us.slowly all our man went down.leave'g only six man.me,shaun,houcheng,bunny,dennis,shawnkong.all man hadd fear in their eyes as ourrr team leader hardi gottt spotted.withh d quick mind of chris n hardi.we tricked d teacher dattt hardi was d only person up there.all ov us had a sigh ov relief.thru thattt ordeal,all six man remain'g quickily dispersed frm d opening.all ov us went to d 'room'.yehhh.. slowly d coast was clear n we went down one by one.d last man,my dearest houcheng.finally came down.. n misssion ACCOMPLISHED.all man safe.non ov us gott into trouble.i loveeeee my classss so much man.supaaaa united.n supaaa helpful in lotza ways aiight.alrighttt,looks like SWAT team shall stand down fer awhile.gotta do it discreetly =).nuff' said bout' thaa SWAT.ahah..aft thattt it was chem.was dat badd.haddd chem prac aft schh.. wasss funn.doin alll kindza diff stuff.haha we were playin wit d alcohol n like trying to burn d basin..haa.chris n ah hu gott pissed at glenn wong.dunt knw why too =\ relaxx n lepattt dawgz.JANGAN TENSION aiighttt.left sch n wenttt ta steng wiv bunny n dennis at some ulu place siaa.but it was quite nicee.haa.. hadd some chokolat ciggie! thoo 3 ppl shared.it toook reallly long..it was rather strong.indo cig newayzz.hee,came home aft dattt.. n something marvellous happnd when i was in thaa train..supaaa entertaining i tell u.it all started arndd d paya lebar station.when diz pregnant lady was stand'g..as it was very squeezy.diz stupid old lady justt squeezed her way thru without saying excuse me.so d young lady just blurted out something..then d old lady went on blabbering gibberish.it was practicallly a fucking cat fightt man.totally bad image ov s'pore.all d foreigner wer like wondering what d fuck is happn'g.d two old n young lady used really colourful languages man.first time see'g suchaa thing..they wer shout'g n cursin' i n diz othaa malay guy just kept comment'g..ahah yes i knw am an ah soh comment'g.haah..aft d young lady got out ov d train at bedok.d old lady just kept comment'g abtt d young lady.supaa fucked up man.newayz am homee nw justttt chilllin n waiting fer ma dindin.shall blog agn tmrr.peaceee outtt homz!

*Murder,Inc.F/DMX/JaRule/Jay-z

Niggas is dead, dead I tell you, can't be serious
What you think is gonna happen
with three of the illest niggas together
Street music and so fourth on one track,huh?
Can't be serious, it's murda nigga, huh, it's Murda

Motha fuckers wanna kill me but don't got the heart
To look me in the eyes with the nine and spark
Cause whether your for or against this
When I spit with murderous intentions, everybody goes everybody knows
The weapons I possess they not for show
And you put dresses on your weapons when you walk out the door
See once I flash mother fuckers better do the one shot dash
Or be one shot ass
J to the A-Y to the drive by to your hood screamin bye-bye to you
Why would you fuck with me
Knowing I put you six feet deep and them niggas could die wit'cha
Cock the hot pistol and pop the hot Cristal
And promise you only one thing, to not miss you
Jahova know the god that served ya
Cause dead or alive when I arrive it's Murda.

Shit I hope ya'll niggas know to lay low now
Cause thou shall perish if you don't bow down
Cause I hit em on sight, its dark dim the lights
You shot twice god bless to this the night
That alot of niggas fear the coming of their life
And you dead right be in hell looking for ice
Fuckin with Ja you bitch niggas talking shit
All on my dick you broke niggas making me rich
You gonna blaze me cause you high ripped off the henne rock
Flow semi-hot handling me your not
Check my forte not even on a bad day you beat this
Rather beat your dick or your bitch
My flow be the sick shit, gravely ill
Niggas dying cause they know I spit like iron, nothing but bark flyin
Flows and mics, hell and night, go together like heaven and light
Niggas ain't seein my plight, It's alright
I let the world know I shine like ice
I bet it all I can throw a hard four in the dice
Cause I'm a gambling man, you should gamble with a gat in your hand
Spin in barrel and put it to your head
Cause we don't dance no more all we do is cock and spit
Dedicated to giving you nothing but thug shit
Think we playing, you undoubtable fall further
Fuckin with I N C is Murda.

I'm a cruddy nigga, goin raw-doggin dirty bitches
and if I get burnt, I'm givin that shit to thirty bitches
You say you know a nigga like me, guess again Poppy
I might smile up in your face but I ain't your friend Poppy
Jump out the fifteen hundred like runnin, niggas don't want it
Get it, Done it, when I'm blunted
However it went down, I made it happen, made it scrapin
I made it fussin, bustin, I made it cappin
And lettin off wasn't nothing new to a nigga
Something to do to a nigga, Cause you is a fool nigga
I know your type, you hype, all up off that fake shit
You can't understand why a man would have to take shit
Or steal shit, but this is that real, niggas kill shit, peel shit
I hit you in your head you won't feel shit!!!
URRUURRRR.....
Let the dogs lose on a niggas ass
Find out if the niggas faster then the trigger's blast
A fucking snake in the truest form
Knowin damn well that what I do is wrong, plus what I do is strong
Niggas is makin movies so i gots to stop production
I need a block to function and maybe I'll stop destructin
The blocks is not for frontin, So let me get that shorty
Cause you don't need that shorty
you don't know what to do with that shorty
You might as well hit this 40, before you hit the floor
Another 24, What you want, Money, More!?!
Them niggas did it raw, with no condom
You find em, sayin sorry he for what he said before I blind them
Get the flame out the four fifth, and there aint gonna be no more riff
Dog you want a floss tiff, but would of made it to the door if
Bullets travled alot slower, and you ran alot faster
But they don't and you can't so don't think about after
Cause tomorrow ain't comin, so stop runnin
cause you gonna die like a sucker
Murder Motherfucker!!!

Uh!, where my mother fucking dogs at, Uh, Uh
My nigga Jigga, My dog Ja, Irv Gotti, Rough Riders, Def Jam
Where my dogs at, Top Fight Uh, Where my dogs at
Hold me down baby, Hold me down baby, Hold me down baby
Boomer One Love Nigga, URRUURRRR, Murda Motherfucker..

..wudd u comee back intaaa my arms again.lovin ya/missin ya..

[two guys n a girl] loveya lil bambam.

this magical feeling i feel inside*

2004-07-11T20:50:00.000+08:00

[10.07.04]
well i din blog yest coz i wasss rather tired n wasnent really in thaa mood to do anythangg.hehh newayz i started my day rather early..it all began arnd 1am in thaa morning.haha when me n my dearest brother aloy decided to go fer supper at simpang bedok.so i met him outside bedok court n we cycled down to simpang.it wass a bloody cooling night man.i was cycling on d main rain lykaa mad cow laughing n shouting.haha i'm madd newayz.wudda do.heh.i ateeeee prataaa!!! =) it wass nicee n garang.ahhaa macham nice sehh.after awhile aloy's frnds came ova ta join us.we were figurin out howta open a stupid box when almost six ov us cudnt open.rather complicated lock.afterall when d owner tried to open it again..it open.haha rather weird huh.after thatt.. me n aloy were about to leave when another two friends ov his called him back.so we cycled back.luckily we were that far away.haha,so we sat down n lepat fer awhile..n talk abit of crap.soon we were all ready to cycle to east coast park =) haha i was rather excited thooo.we hadd an easy journey there..stopped by mobil station to pump our bikes n we were all set!ahha we slowly cycled to east coast parkk..was reallly fun!we cycled to thaa 24hr mcdonalds there to lepat.i was rather astonished to see belle,rachel,wanyi n emily there.haha i din reall expect to see them there.haha they thot dey cud go night riding.but by d time dey came.all d kiosk wer closed.haha poor them..so dey took a cab back home.haha..i and aloy wer using thee free internet thinggie.it sucked as hell..it was so fucking laggy man shit!anddd thaa worst shitt thatt happened was that i was stuck on my fucking blog when d dymm com hanged man shit.haha newayz after that me n aloy decided to cycle to d jetty to havee a gd chatt n to lepat.we talked abt rather personal issues.sighhh* was a heart to heart talk.owell.. we decided to go home arnd 4+..so yehhh.haha d funny thing is on my way home i knew smth'g was wrong with my bike.skali kena hantu siaa.haha j/k.to my surprise..it was actually justt my bike tyre which gott soft n all.so i had a had job cycling back home.LUCKILY i was close ta maahh hse already =) so huffed n puffed n cycled home.was sweating lyk fuck when i got home.haha i slept lyk pig aft i finished bathing.when i wokee up i was still feeling tired n my eyes wer like half closed.haha,newayz after gettiin all dressed up.i took a cab down cuz i was running late.had to meet candice n all arnd 2.30 n it was arnd 2.00 when i just left ma hse.haha,newayz when i reached town i lepat at rockys while waitg fer d whole ching gang ta come.was wiv cyndi,tuya,rebecca n all.when all were gathered.we went up to buy tickets fer mean girls.it wasss a really funny n entertaining show.if u guys havent watched it go catch it!ohhhh fuckkk i forget to comment abt thaaa things we did before thaa movie.OK FROM HERE ONWARDS PLZ READ IT PROPERLY =).ok here it goes..i,candice,selwyn,melody n sherlyn all went to kbox.this common room.daryl was drink'g n all cuz it was his b'dae so he invited us.had a few mugs ov tiger.THEN d BEST PART happened.i didnt know candice lit thaa lighter.she said she was intending to burn lyk only one strand.haa so i din know.thenn *VOOOOOOOOOM.MY FUCKING HAIR WAS BURNING LIKE FUCK.at first i din know.till i felt weight on my hair.then i was lyk FUCKING HELL MY FUCKING HAIR IS ON FIRE.hahaa luckily i put it out on time man.dymmm!my hair smelt lykk fuck siaa.n its fucking short now.THANX TO FIRE HAIRSTYLIST candicetanzhaoxi.hahah its alrightt sweetie i stilll loveeee u =) even tho my hair is rather important to me.owell..that was reallly funny to quite a number ov them.they sat down n loook n my like foools n didnt know whatt to do.haha ayee peeps j/k lah.newayz after d movie n all.we wenta eat dinner near youthpark.aft that went back outside kpool to chill.slowly one by one went off.den candice decided to go to sel's hse.so we head'd there to chill.saw his lil cute meowmeow.aft chillin in his crib i took a cab.candice n sel waited fer me.when i gott home i was tired as hell.so i bathed n went rightt into barnyland!

[11.07.04]
i woke up rather late today cuz i slept pretty late thaa night before.needed to get enough rest..haha i actually woke up arnd 1.but i was slacking in bed till 2.i wass lykaa pigg..my time was running short cuz i was intending to cut my hair cuz it was rather screwed up n i needed to go ta church after that.so quickly got outta bed,ate my 'breakfast' which was arnd 2.15.haha..den i bathed n quickly got outta d hse.i toook d mrt ta townn n later wenta wisma supercuts to cut ma hair.FUCKING HELL IT FUCKING COSTED 33 FUCKING BUCKS man.should have gone to my usual,reds.dymmm!i should really stick to reds.afterall i got d discount card there.ahwell..d haircut didnt turn out that bad.it justt loooks reealllly short man.after cut'g ma hair i head'd down to heeren to meet gerlynn,angel n spencer.din see gerlynn fer nearly 3 mths.damm i misss her man.aft that we wenta cine kfc taa eat.then i hadta leave for church.church was all so boring infact.i wasent really in a good moood tho.dunt knw y..heh mood swing lah.newayz had dinner out wiv my mom dad n bro.family day whatt..so yehh.aft thatt it was back homeee..well.i was wondering where my sweetie was all d while.din really text her much today..guess she was rather bz.sigh* i justtt misss her.even tho i only saw her yest.heh..i want her 24 7.dymm am just greedy..wudda do.haha,lovee her ta bits man.bahhh!am tired n sleeep.blog tmr!booya! am outtta hirr.dymmm! jiggy wit it homies.peace.

*idontmeantomakeufeeluneasy.sighh*sorry.\\istilllloveuheapshoney!

*3 doors down - here without you.

no mood.sigh*

2004-07-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

:no one ever said love wus gonna be easy.we'd have to face many problems n obstacles through the relationship.guess its a test of how strong our love or bond we have with each other.so baby take my hand n we'd walk by all this lil probbies.u've got my back.trust is the most important thing.blive..we'd b able to do it:

hollar hollar niggaz!hadd a pretty fun day today.din go to school today either.had my 100m breastroke early in thaa morning.i didnt have enough sleep n i was dead tired.haha so what wud my swim turn outta b?fucked up rytttt?haha it happend like that.so i din even qualify fer d finalz diz yr.this is how bad it got.normally i'd at least qualify.. my existence was only durin sec two where i won two gold fer ma individual events n sec three n four where i won a silver n a broze.ahwell..those days have gone by man.now,i really think swimming is suchaa bore.but its only fun during comps.haah,i'd totally give up swimming aft this yr in sec5.cant take it sia.but i'll still swim occasionally i guess =) i was dymmm happy to see my long lost brother irvin lin zhenrong!!! ahaha,fucking good buddy sia.many memories during our asia pacific swimming competition in zhuhai,china two years back was dymm memorable!haha on thaa plane.d pic i showed him ov those massive things.haha,he nearly died man.thaa fun we had with d china coach n all.haha n how we used to smk in thaa lounge ontop ov d hotel.real nyce man!dymmm i misss those days man.geez..i wanna relive those times.hahah,d jap girl swimmers n hongkong swimmers.macham hott siaa..but that was back then.hehe.newayz..i,irvin n my dearest wanpok went to town fer lunch then pool.haha we ate thaaa fareast chicken rice.irvin was right..thaa standerd kinda dropped man.haha after our sumptous meal we head to lucky plaza to play at mambo.it was rather empty thoo.oyahh i forgott..haha when i was at fareast i saw my rojak dance partner joshuaa!!!haha love him sia.he was wiv small jem,baker,nat n stef.bloody small jem was hiding from his father's office worker who was spy'g on jem.haha..how dumb can it get man.i went home after play'g pool with them.wanpok head'd down to irvin's hse.probly to lepat..i was too tired.so i took a mrt home..slept on d train lyka pig as usual =p my mom fetched me..haha i'm king lah.!newayz i was lepat'g at home before tuition.sighh* din know whatta do.. coz i din talk to her fer like d whole morning n afternoon.guess she was real bz.things arent thatt good fer now.buttt we'd b able to pull it through togedda.i justtt love her so so much man.being in sucha state like this..is nva what i wanted to see.but i guess sometimes people make mistakes.and we learn from it yehh.sweeetieee..am still loving u like i always did =).right now i guess ur all complicated n all too.butt baby didnt i tell u..we'd walk this relationship togedda hand in hand.we'd b strong =) blive ..heh.during tuition it was quite funny siaa.haha d bloody beatle flew straight into my teacher's face..ahhaa d five of us wer laughing like hell.coz he thot its some bee.haha macham gay sia he.but later he flicked it outta d window.but then..it didnt flew out.it got stucked.den halfway doin d chemistry questions..d fucking beetle flew right at my face siaa.ahha does it remind u ov anything candice?hahaha.science tuition lasted fer two solid hours today man..power.i've grown alil smart.hehe..newayz.. after tuition mom n i wenta fetch my darling father.then headed home..was rather shack..am going to meet aloy fer supper at simpang ltr.gonna cycle there.haha lazy lahh..its prata is nyceeee n garang!!!ahah fatten'g lahh but who cares.just today =) me n my bro aloy..lepat togedda n eat prata or NASI PA PREK ahh.ahahhahah..newayz.peaceee outtt niggaz.blog tmr.

.wannaplaymindgames.bringiton.iaintdatweak.

imstilllovingulikeialwaysdidhoney*\
*lil john remix -get low.

love.faith.trust.

2004-07-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

..cribblin in thaaa houze ya'll.pump it up dawgz!checkit in thaa house.dj's spinnin thattt shittt aiiight..

boooyakasha thaaa jungle is massive!i shall blog a short one today,cuz am rather lazy to blog today.haha matt's a pig newayz.i woke up rather early today..cuz i hadta go to school to hand up mah ss hw.heh,head'd down to thaa swimming pool after thatt..cuz i had maa 200m breastroke today.while i was in thaa car i was like thinking..geez how am i gonna b able to float again man.now thatt am so fat and i havent trained closed to about six months.i was scared thatt i'd drown bhind all those waves.haha..when i got there i was lykk shitt guyz.dooms day ..haha.n i had to swim this bloody event coz fucking gay dingster forced me to swim.n i din like thaa idea.so matt decided to b a basterd =).i received ma sch swim team shirt.loook weird n hmmz..it was kinda ughly lah.mustt b thattt fucking gay who did thaa shirt agn.no fucking taste man cb.newayz..when it was my turn.i wenta report.i saw all thaa ppl i used to beat man.haha nw i think they'd kick maa asss.truee enough after my race.ppl whom i used to win..nw ..far infront ov me.haha,this shows thattt slacking isnt thee key to success aiight =p ahwell,after thatt 'fun' episode.i,jacqi,tania,chen ann n mark went to toapayoh interchange fer lunch..then we were gonna stay ova at tp.but din hv anything to do.so we decided to go to potblack to play pool.i missssed jacqi n tania so much siaa.nva seen them fer realli long..my godsistahz =) tania looking all styled up n jacqi lookin as pretty as ever.man!there makin it big now man..actors sehh.the show tht their gonna b in is broadcasting arnd october.gotta catch it man!dymm i justt love mahh godsistahz..newayz.after all the fun.. we head'd back to thaa pool.coz i and chenann wud b swimming thaa relay.basket when we gott there we rush lyk nobodies bizzness sia.coz we thott d relay already started.luckily it was d c'divs only..hehe.aft ma relay farnybarny ask me ta go to town.so i head'd down ta heeren to meet em'.heh,cliff n vickadick was shocked taa c me tho.haha cuz i told em' i wasnt commin =) but newayz..we took neos.rather gay..butt heh yeahhh..then we head'd back to cinee to lepat.then vic n cliff had to go..so left wiv me,maa darl'g,le en n small jem.after awhile leslie came..then we lepat togeddaa..then waited fer a cab fer ma sweetie.cuz she hadta go n meet her friend.then i took mrt home wiv leslie ..so coincidentally i met maa mom n ate leia.so we walked home togedda.maa moma was so sweeet.she bought korean food fer maa dinner.it tasted wonderful!newayz..am rather tired now.hollar anotherr dayy.peace dawgz!one love.

*istillloveulikeialwaysdobaby.290604.

hopelessly devoted to u.

2004-07-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

[dearrieee.neverletlittlethingsputyoudown.iwannaseeusmilefromwithin]

i just finish my ss hw.spose ta passs it up tmr morning but i wont b able ta go ta sch coz i'd b having my swimming sch national heats.ahwell..sighhhh talk'g to mahhh dearest barny nw.she isnt in a goood moood =\ thats bad.newayz am try'g ma best now to comfort her n ask her whats wrong..hee.was kinda late fer school today thoo.woke up late as usual.haha..sch was really fun today.bernard came to sch to look fer ben wee cuz dey apparently had some misunderstanding.so as usual matt was a middleman again =) oyehh n coz fucking gay ding dong didnt comee..we had a free period.n during thaa free period.we had a guest.. whos a total freakazoid n a loser.his name is smth'g tat lah.an ex student from barker before..totally geeky n all.forcing us to do our work..but we didnt care much abt thatt basterd till d othaa kinda teacher asked us to do.that 'aw so cool' teacher scold'd houcheng..very bad move indeed.so houcheng scolded him back in thee end.haa was rather funny though.aft school.a whole big group ov us met us wiv bernard,his bro n darius ..to speak some things out with ben wee.end'd up rather messy.. but owell..i din give much ova dymmm actually =).after all those things.. me,shawn,wenhu n mark head'd down to heeren to pass gerard his spare hp which chris wanted to passs to him.later,we went to some ulu place fer a short loco.shawn n mark decided to check out zara's sale so we head'd down there to check some things out.dymm all d new stock ov clothes kinda sucked.all pastal colours.had afew nice ones only..shawn n wenhu saw a part of pants which dey intend to get.rather simple n comfy.stylish too.later d four ov us head'd down ta cine to see who was there.but we only saw le en .. n he was alone.town was rather boring today tho.then we saw d fucking loser ahmad ah..kena interview by some rgs ppl.disgrace to d singaporean society sia.such an ughly piece of shit wana appear on a cam.all thaa rg girls wudd puke at suchaa ugly MUDDY face.fucking hate datt basterd man.face sibei jiao sia.macham kena bang by lorry.aft lepat'g awhile at cine.. le En n i decided to make our way down ta ps cuz i'd b meet'g sher,maaa dearrieee n ang.so while waiting.. we stroll'd arnd ps n all.den went ta d foodcourt ta wait fer them.aft theyy came we wenta buy d tics.we watched windstruck.it was a really touching n geez.. nice movie.we sat on d second row thoo.pretty hard to watch but heh..it was still possible =p.it taught me a thing or twoo.owell.. halfway during thaa movie i wanted to piss badly.then i control..towards d end..le'en complained also,say'g he was experiencing supaaa HIGH TIDE.hahahaha,he was so lucky when we got outta d cinema.he walked rather fast towards d toilett ov thaa seventh floor.BUT it was CLOSED.hahaha..he bloody cudnt take it.so he punched me.haha,then i candice n him went to d toilet on thaa sixth story.hee,aft tht..sher n ang took cab home while i n maaaa sweetie took mrt home.le En took bus back home.i senttt farny barny back ta queenstown mrt n head'd back home.oyahhh!she gave me some choc..hee sweeet ov her.!hope maa letter to her wasnt messy man.n sweeetie its MY handwriting..hahaa.n she decided nt to eat thaa spongebob candy i gave to her.haha..dymmm shes suchaa cutiee!i toook a short nap on my way back home.was really tired man..slept in sch today whtt.haaha,whats new rightt..owell..din eat much fer dindin.still no appetite siaa..dymm weird.ahwell..am goin to sleep arnd 1230 or 1 today.cant b bothered abt maa heats tmr lahh.swimming is a bloody boring sport.prefer waterpolo..heh.newayz shalll blog tmr.till hir fer now.nyteeeee dawgz.n rememba.. [bloodybarnylovesfarnybarny]. booooooyaaaa!

*//darling all those memories that i've spent with u.are times i'd reasure.times that i'd look back upon n ponder when issit gonna happen again.spending time with u is just marvellous.no matter whd izzit..haha even lepat'g togedda.your daa queen ov my heart honey.iloveeeu soo much//*

*atlantic starr - masterpiece

A simple touch of your hand,
And everything is right.
The gentle way you look at me,
When we kiss goodnight.
You've given me the freedom no other love has known
And now I thank you girl , thank you girl

The countless ways you've touched my heart
Is more than I can say
The beauty that you've shown to me
takes my breath away
A picture perfect painting, that's what our love is
And yes I need you so, and now I know

ooooh
I've found a masterpiece in you
a work of art it's true
And I treasure you my love
ooooh
I've found a masterpiece in you
a work of art it's true
And I treasure you

Sometimes I wonder what I'd be
Had I not found you
A least and lonely soul this world
could show me nothing new

But now my life's a canvas
painted with your love
And it will always be
And now I see

The gentle walks together
Through time will never pass
This fairy tale we shared
is real inside our hearts
let it be forever
never let it end
this promise I can make
Heaven is ours to take

When I'm lost and insecure
you build me up and make me sure
that everything will be alright
My love

..this fairy tale we're sharing is real inside our hearts.let it b forever.never let it end..

alwaysrememberthatyourkeeprightbeneathmyheartstaythereduntgo*\loveeeyaaataabitsmydearestfarnybarny -mwahhhhhhh.

sweetness filled from within.

2004-07-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

290604.
iloveeeusweetie.myoneandonly.
we'dwalkthisrelationshiptogedda.
bloodybarnyloveesfarnybarnytothaacore.

g'dayy people.aiight.. started ma day in a really lazy mood.woke up like ten minutes after my usual time.so i hadta rush n all man.haha end up makin my hair rather weird.yess i know i'm vain.haha i admit =).blive it or not i've got about nine facial washes.haha..gett thaa picture yet?heh.newayz..when i got to school i had to run to d tennis courts sia,if not late.dunt like being late fer school!irving came to school with scratches n all..but it was a gd fight.he kick thatt bucket of shit!downnn to thaa floor dawg!making thatt keling kia's facee bleed lyk nobodys bizzness aiight.school went on pretty fine tho.othaa then thatt fucking donkey's chem lesson..sent out my whole table ov frnds except me.so i sat down feel'g all so lonely n listened.geez.. he's fucking biased against us man!owell..din eat much durin recess today.had kinda a budget meal.haah i wana loose weight laa..wudda do.aft thatti hadd PE.i din takee cause on thursday i'd be having my swimming school national heats man.i'm so gonna die.. havent been training n stamina went down lyk mad.expect me to swim lyk before for my 100 n 200m breastroke?gottta b kiddin man dawg.gonna retire aft this year.haha,swimming is fucking boring sia.hope i can skip school this thusday..then i can enjoy maa beauty sleep sia.today in class during dj simsters lessonn..fwah i slept lykaa pig siaa.but i always get woken up by him.rather irrit lahh..but i dunt knw why i was so shacked out siaa.haha mayb not enough sleepp..but thaa rest of my friends all seem finee.. =|when school ended..wahh i was like a fatboy hu loves his chocolate cake sia.was intending to do gymm..but seemed lyk noone did.so i left with small jeremy to townn.town was rather empty when we got there.only josh,cindy,terry n bj was there.after awhile me n jem decided to go to kfc fer a meal.but i wasnt in thaa mood to eat.din have appetite u see.geez,dunt knw how long wud it last =( owell..after eating we lepat at
rockys to wait for maa sweeetie,cliff n aloy.as time went by..it slowly drizzled n later.. rained.was scared thatt barny wud gett caught in thee rain.owell..not long aloy came.then he said candice was at d station waiting fer cliff..so yeahh.geez..when ma lil baby camee..she was all drenched up..shee loookedd so so cute.haha..at d same time really poor thing.i kinda surprised her with a cadbury crunchie that i got for her before she came =) owell.after that i slowly dried her hair fer her with ma towel.shes so poor thing k..all wet.sigh.. hope u'll b fine honey!i toook rather long to dry her hair.haha..aft thatt barny showed me her ss hw,so i decided to help her..hee.was pretty easy lahh.it was on UN n the reason of its peace keeping nation,smth'g along dat line lahh.aha,aft thatt cliff wanted to eat.so i,cliff n cand wenta eat at long john.i lepat there only siaa.din wana eat again.heh n bloody clifford was a pig siaa..ate two orders ov combo1..dymm!while i was there i met three xialan lower sec arses.heh..macham loser lahh.ahwell..aft all those.we lepat at rockys again.more ppl werr there..i sat down with maa deariee.she was happily doing her math holiday assignments..HAH!her handwriting rather nice siaa..i inturn haddd a surprise from her.hahaha,a letter =) goshhh i loveeeee herr to thaaa coreee ballz!i gotta spend some time alone with her.thatts whatt i really like =p.aft she was done with her work.i and her head'd home..we toook d mrt.i sent her till queenstown mrt den she waited fer ma train ta come before she left.how sweeet huh.then we saiddd our gooodbyes n heh hadta meet aloy back at cityhall den head home.of alll ppl i din expect to see nick ng.din see him fer really long ballz.so i said hi n all.hows things goin n all.looks like he's really into pool ballz!owell,i had a slow walk home with aloy..told him how happy i was today n how blessed i am taa have suchaa girlfriend!when i got home i had dindin right away.i wasent that hungry but i hadta at least eat smth'g..so i ate mom's cooking.was great =).owell..gotta do maa social studies homework later..n reply thaa letter maa sweetie wrote fer me.it wasss sweeet =).its till hiirrr fer now peeps.wud blog agn tmr!outttt thurrr niggaz.

*jessica simpson feat. mark anthony -there you were.

I was counting down minutes.
I was wishin' on the stars.
I was prayin' for a sign,
And tryin' to beat the odds.
I was dreamin' of you,
Love lbefore I wsaw your face.
And there you were,
Waitin' for that day.
Then you reached through the hurricane,
When youm baby you called me name.

You broke through the storm,
And you turned back the night.
Baby you are the fire,
Burnin' the midnight sky,
And your love,
Keeps taking me higher.
Just when all hope zas gone,
Where the hero belongs...
There you were.

Must have broken into heaven,
Just to roll back the douds.
Were you on a mission.
Were tou seekin me out.
Was I that one in amillion.
Was I that one sacred kiss,
That you couldn't chance,
You just couldn't miss.
thenYou whisperes through the silent tears,
When you swept away all my fears.

You broke through the storm,
And you turned back the night.
Baby you are the fire,
Burnin' the midnight sky,
And your love,
Keeps taking me higher.
Just when all hope zas gone,
Where the hero belongs...
There you were.

Standin' in the middle of nowhere,
With your arms wide open and you,
You were the reason when there was no reason.
In my life
You're the reason in my life.

You broke through the storm,
And you turned back the night.
Baby you are the fire,
Burnin' the midnight sky,
And your love,
Keeps taking me higher.
Just when all hope zas gone,
Where the hero belongs...
There you were.

You broke through the storm,
And you turned back the night.
Baby you are the fire,
Burnin' the midnight sky,
And your love,
Keeps taking me higher.
Just when all hope zas gone,
Where the hero belongs...
There you were.

Like the light in the eye of the storm,
Tellin' me not to cry anymore.
Where I watched my whole world fall apart,
Shinin' through like on angel from afar

You broke through the storm,
And you turned back the night.
Baby you are the fire,
Burnin' the midnight sky,
And your love,
Keeps taking me higher.
Just when all hope zas gone,
Where the hero belongs...
There you were.

..thanks alot fer all thaa care n concern u have fer me sweeetie.daa way u shower ur love upon me,as i said its magical..

||you made me what i am.loveutaabits candicetanzhaoxi||

a day filled with emotions . . .

2004-07-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

boooyakasha!!its 12.09 in thaa morning already..i didnt feel like sleeping so i came online to do a short one.am currently talk'g to cliff,maa sweeeetie n prata girl.heh,maa day was pretty fucked up from thaaa start.i din have a good sleeep but it was comfy n windy..d night before durin d portugal vs. greece match..dymmm!it was exciting..haha durin halftime aloy's mom n sister cooked us smth'g ta eat cuz me,josh n baojun wer hungry.so we had ramen n jap fried chicken =) yummy huh..hehe.in thaa morning arnd 12.30 i head'd home from aloys hse cuz i hadta rush down to yishun.it wass fucking far ballz.so aft i bathed..i rushed to d mrt.hadta meet chua man before that too at dhoby..so we slowly took our time till we reached yishun.meet weichern den we head'd down ta meet a bigger grp.saw thee vi-MY-LAN's face with his keling kia frnds.all bucket of shit sia thatt group.we stayed there fer quite sometime till d final decision was a one on one.irving vs. bucket of shit ..aft a short while.houcheng got a call saying irving won.all of us wer rather happy.ahwell,aft all those commosion..me,chris n chua head'd back ta town =).when i got to town i meet maa sweeetie,melody n her frnds.i wasnt really in a good mood at that moment thoo.butt yeahh..[sorrry dearieee if i was being sucha snob.din say hi to all yer fwends] newayz..i played pool with selwyn fer awhile den with chua.farny barny n frnds wenta pay a visit to spiderman.it lasted fer abt 2 hrs.hee,farny barny thot i was pms'g =( booohooo.i wasntt..hee,newayz i stilll loveeee u hon!i din manage to talk to cand till lyk when everyone decided to go home.then i spoke to her at one corner.well it turned out fine.baby,nv let small things get in our way.lil probs are always crap.we'll walk this relationship togedda =p.so aft all those talk'g we head'g to cali fitness fer aloy to do some things den we took a cab.sent maa cute lil gummybear homee den i n aloy made our way home.in thaa cab i was already feeling really drowsy n all.seriously felt like puking.when i reached home..mom gave me some weird cheena syrup n told me ta drink it.ahwell..but it doesnt seem ta help cuz when i was bath'g,haha i puked man.all ma char siew so. came outt..totally sick.i forced maself ta eat cuz d past few days n weeks i havent been eat'g much.newayz its good.cuz i wana loose weight.haaa,owell..its just up thaaa hir ryttt now.wud b doing gym in d later part ov d day.gona work it out dawgz!laytah! =) iloveeecandicetanzhaoxi.

*seniorita your love is magical.iloveyatothacore =p
*farnybarny couple is deeeeeply in loveee.wheeee!

+//i'm sorry fer all thaa things that i've done today sweetie.nv meant thaa make u feel thatt way.gona make it up to u.yourr ma walk'g smiley face.hee,u keep me going hon.u've seen me thru ma ups n downs.i'd b by your side.i wana b there ta see u thru too.sharing each n every moment with u.i pray fer all thaa time that i've lost.just to spend it with u.iloveeubaby//+

:u gottta do it gangstahh lovin' aiight outtt thurrr homies:

imissulykcrazeh\\

2004-07-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

hola hola!justtt came back home frm tuition sia,macham tired.haah,i din bath till just now.heh,had a pretty long and tiring day today man.it all started wiv a little drizzle in d morning n slowly it rained.i was sleep'g like a bloody pig in thaa car cuz i slept rather late d night before.think i'm still in tha holiday mood.am having irregular sleeping times.used ta sleep arnd six or seven am in d morning durin tha hols.haha cuz i'd b conferencing on thaa phone wiv heaps ov people.real fun =).n coz i'm still in a holiday mood.i normally sleep in class..which is bad.hah,but owell..am just feel'g real shack n sleep'g durin sch hours man.school was alright today,we haddd early recesss.mwahahhaa,i really think i shud cud down on d things i eat durin recess man.gotta shed off those excess fats.can die sia.loookin lyk a bloody fatball =\ incredibly i lost six kg durin thaa hols man.i do cardio in d gym lyka mad fuck siaaa.haha,frm eighty three.. now am seventy seven =) speaking about doing gym,i did chest,bicep n tricep excersises.. five sets of thirty reps.can die siaa..den today i pump again.hardcore ballz.. now all ache'g lyk hell.haha tmr gona wake up lyka old man macham kena bed-ridden sia.ahwell,shall gett maa momaa taaa give me a gd massage before i sleeep.haha i'm the king ov thee house sorry =).lepat lahh.. j/k ..rightt now i'd say relationship wiv maa parents have beeen good.havent been quarelling,not like last time.haha,scolded her a bitch n told her ta fuck off.loook guyss..i aint a filial son afterall,sigh.though i may have scolded em',i dont mean it.its just at dat moment that ma temper flares n boooom.words ov magic blabbers out =).after school,i and brendan lim toook an mrt home.. on thaa train i thot i cud catch a short nap,but sadly..it was packed.newayz.. i gott a short nap when i got home.hee,and d bloody parrot ahh..greeted me with a helllo..followed by a fuck u.haha,guess aft teach'g it how to say fuck u.it decides to say it to me,hahaa.. it dam cute neways.its always hyper n thinks its in d disco..always bouning up n down.think it thinks its a dodo fishball dats being drop'd sia.haha *boinggg*.thatt reminds me ov victoria lim.. a.k.a penisauras,and dodo fishball eyes.heh,havent seen her in town lately sia.probly eat'g her own fishball noodles =).after i woke up,mom said we'd fetch dad before we head down ta ma tutors hse.heh,cuz she doesnt knw how to go there..she lost her way tha other time n she call me n she was cry'g on tha phone tellin me shes sorry she cant fetch me.i pity her sia..den i slowly directed her to d house.i loveeeeee maaa momaaaa ta bits ballz.i really felt likaa nerd sia,all d smart dicks in ma tuition group..haa bud i blended in lah.we did some acsi mid-yr paper or smth'g..was awryte la,wasnt dat hard.mayb cuz i had help..haha.my dearest farny barny was having fun in town =( gosh how i wish i was there ta b with her.I MISSSSS HERR! boooohooo.how i wish shes bside me 24/7.but i knw that aint possible..haa,ahwell am justtt so deeeeeply in love with her.whenn i got home.. again i said hi to d parrot.it was sleeping..so i decided to b bad n woke it up.haha it was so cute.it justtt stood on thaa wooden thiggie n stone sia.till i shouted 'hey u blooody bird!wakeeey wakeyyyy' haa,thenn it suddenly whistled n said helllo.dymmm its freak'g smart sia.thaaa otha time ma momaa decided to test its intelligence,she gave it a four day old cut up apple..it refused to it.after that..ma mom gave it a nice one.freshly cut..diz time it ate.haa,ok another time was when i gave it some biscuit wit thaat lil sugary colourful thiggie on top.yehh,it soaked d biscuit inta d water before it ate,so its softer..fuckin smart prick sia.geez,i think candice is probly still in town or having supper with her friend =( glad thattt i'd b able to seee her tmr..heh,spend tha whole day with her man.powerrr sehh!

deargodpleaseletherknowmyheartisbeatingwithhers*\iloveeeeeeeeeeumydearestmamasita.candicetan =)

*//everytime i try to fly.i fall without my wings.i feel so small.i guess i need u baby.and everytime i see u in my dreams,i see your face.its haunting me.i guess i neeed u baby.i make belive that you are here.its the only way i see clear,what have i done.u seem to move on easy.//*

||sweeetie i'll b loving u with all thats possible.hold my hand as we walk this relationship togedda.we need each othaa..i need u.all i wana see is that smile on yer face.only then i'll smile from within.your d othaa part ov me.thee one i really love.in your arms is where i call home||

.funkyassbeats.cribblemastahzspinningthaaathang.groovetothabeat.
welcometothajungle.wherecivilisationisforgotten.

cribblemastahz.

2004-07-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

putang ina mo!its 8.10 in thaa evening..n i havent bath since i came home from ma math tuition.how good huh..heh.its beeen rain'g heavily d past few days..dymm is dat a sign ov smth'g?hmmz,i took really long ta wake up today.so i was quite late fer sch,but since it was raining..assembly was in clazz so it was awryte.heh,wht more man..lessons wer sucha bore.donkey wong.. sucha fuckin sarcastic dick sia.thru d day it was finee..oyehh n small jeremy n joshua came ta sch to visit us.sweeet huh..aft recess i went fer a nice loco in d toilet =) powerrrr sehhh!!!.aft dattt i wenta d library to lepat.havin so many free periods are fun,but at d same time..boring.haa,ahwell..i wenta play soccer aft sch in d sports hall.was all sweaty n stuff..so i cooled down at daily bread.n saww all ma juniors have'g train'g.geez..i miss polo =\ havent played fer lyk sucha long time man.gottta get those ballz inta thaa net n start pull'g some trunks agn.haha,whts new..am a chao playa in polo if ppl make me angry.haha,still can rmb d time i punch,kick n strangle dat chinese high polo playa cuz he insulted me.haha,gave it good to him sehh.farny barny is kind ta keeep me company thruout ma day in sch cuz it wuz so borin'.iloveeeeeher ta bits man.dymmm!aft lepat'g at the cafeteria i made ma way down with my brother bear mahesh to thomson..we took a bus.on d bus we saw this fat ijtp girl siaa.haha macham lump ov lard.*woopz sorry la am mean.haa,newayz.. i was taking ma tyme ta walk to d teachers hse.gosh i wish i owned one ov those houses there.they're lyk fuckin masssive man shittt.by d time i got there..i was all sweaty n all man.geez..n d bad thing is thatt i was really shacked out man.haha,halfway thru tuition ma cell rang.d bloody teacher think her hse got hantu siaa..suddenly play usher-yeah!haha,n i was dozing off lyk mad.so she kindly made me a cup ov coffee.aft awhile i wasent so sleepy..but at certain points ov time i had ma eyes half open.haha,ahwell..aft tuition i took a bus ta newton n back home.sleeept on d train siaa,nearly misssed ma stop.haa oyah i forgot ..i got back ma prelim oral results.din do dat well.got 29/50 overall =\ hope i can do betta fer d o's man.geez..tensions build'g up man.veh soon its d o's..gosh.i got a surprise when i got home.ma mom managed to catch a cute lil parrot.supaaa smart siaaa,when i came inta d house it said helloo..ahha den i started whistling to it.it whistled da same dymm tune sia.nt bad,when i said i love u to it.it came real close to me n let me patt it.aww..haha.i stilll have ma dream ov fly'g dat plane with ma kidz.geez..seems real distant.hope time wud fly by.n nw i'm a father..geez i cant wait.i wana c how its like..sighhh.i misss farny barny.wonder how she is,i wanna c her soon.seem so empty n lost without her =\ ahwell shes my life.my love.. she gotttt me goin crazy ova her man.dymmm!nw even mr tang knws abt her.. haa,cuz somehow ppl knw n dey said she looked lyk carolyn leow.my sch teacher..haa,but even i think its true.haa..shes probly sleeping in her lalaland now.all i ever want fer her is to b happy =) when she is,she makes me smile from within.n the feel'g is justt magical.am crazy ova her.haa,sorry..but yeahh.life has been goin pretty fine i guess..justt lotza thrills aiight.heh,i gotttta go n bath sooon man.i smellllll bad!!yooohooo.. farny barny .. wakeee up sooon.. i wanaaa speakkk to u =) haha,u'll always b maahh baby. -mwahhhhhh.its tilll herreee fer now dawgz..check yer guyz outt tmr aiiightt.hola hola.outttt thurrr niggaz.ilovetanzhaoxi =)

iloveutillthaendovtimebaby.yourallievaneed.useerightthrume*// ilu*farnybarny -smwakz.

*//alll u ppl bigggie up ya'lll checkit one two on tha dancefloor.ppl move to thaa beat ya'll aiight thaa cribblemastahzz in thaa houze knahmean.u playaz up in thaaa ghetto.get downnn n get bizzaay dawgz..get jiggy wit thoze honayyz!smoke someee crack n gettt highhh n tipsy aiight.fer all i'm feelin' lyka pimp in thaa club,totally lyka gigolo with lotza hoes.up in thaaa crib,c all u fine laydayz movin thatt booty to thaa beat,body smokin lyka cuban cigar.thaaa way u move ur body lyka snake.mamasita!its smokin in thaaa houze.fer now justtt chill up in thaaa hood dawgz.keeep thoze honayzz goin aiightt.respek' outttttt thurrrr ma homies,misssss ya guyzz bak in thaaa philippines man.we gotta check inta thattt club lyk fuckin' vips aiight.remember dawgz,'DECADES' at makati.ma treat dawgz.justtt keeep trippin aiight.hollah ta u guyz another tyme.biggggie up fellaz,uhhuh inspect thaaa game yo.peace.//*

scared/confused.

2004-06-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

my bed felt like heaven when i woke up.i was glued ta ma bed..heh.then again ma dad forced me outta bed..it was a pretty fun day in sch tho.justt datt i was feeling realllly sleepy ballz.it was sucha nice day ta sleep cuz it was raining.wish i have a bed in sch siaa.today was ma first lesson wiv donkey wong..doesnt seem that bad afterall.mayb its just d start.. time wud tell.heh,i ate alot during recess sia.macham pig..haha.ahwell.. i wenta d gym aft sch.din quite a no. of reps.. nw muscles pain sia.nva do fer nearly 3weeks sia.aft gym i decided ta head ta town cuz farny barny asked if i'd liketa join em'.so we lepat at rockys as usual till arnd 4.45 or so..den i sher n cand head'd home.sighh.. wus quite weird today tho.guess.. ah nvm.i hope shes fine.i still love her fer d way she is =) wheeeee.am rather tired nw.. probly sleep aft doing ma maths tuition hw.cuz its tmr =\ owell..shall blog tmr.i loveeeeee farny barny ta bits -smwakkz.outttt thurrr niggaz.peace.

marvellous day.

2004-06-29T21:46:00.000+08:00

well.it went on a pretty fine day i'd say.was reluctant ta wake up in d morn cuz i wasnt in d mood fer sch.haa,but neway..sch turned outt ta b pretty fun in d end.had a new english teacher today.it seem'd like d ppl wiv d new teacher are d weaker n noiser bunch.haa,owell..i head'g ta town aft sch.den i saw chinhua n kaifeng.den we went ta d toilet to steng.felt gd..ahha,aft dat i lepat at rockys with aloy.talked some things out..then came candice,flash n splash n eggie.dey wenta long john.so i n aloy wenta find em'.aft dat i pop'd d quest.well was positive =).hopee ta b with her till like reallllly long.newayz,then we sat down at rockys ta lepat agn.haaa,den we head'd ta heeren ta take neos.sounds rather gay but yeahh.owell,i went home wiv candice,sher n sel aft dat.at tanah merah aloy walked me home.told him hw blessed i was.hehh,ryttt nw i'm study'g ma physics notes,lyka fuck'g nerd seh.am tired.. back ta ma beddd.wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!